|"Why does the
past always seem safer?
Maybe because at least we know me made it.
And why do we worry about the future
when every day will come just the way the Lord
~~Chris Rice, lyrics from the song Eighth Grade
I know this has been an emotional week for many of us
in the U.S. and with connections to the States. I'm
thinking of you all and praying for you all and, of course,
for those in and around Boston and also West, TX.
Maybe because of that, I've pretty much firmly parked
myself in Dyeland mode as far as JABB is concerned.
I'm working on 2 stories simultaneously so this newsletter
is really thrown together... and over half-written by my
younger self. Nothing like making your twenty year old
self do your work for ya! I haven't done a "Jenni and
Jenni Write JABB" since... wow... October 2009. But
today I'm bringing it back! Enjoy... or cringe.
Or do both like I am. ;-)
I'm pretty sure previous installments of this were "warts
and all" because the warts were pretty much just me being a
super geek. But this installment would have involved
some totally not fun things if I hadn't done some
editing. Short sanitized version: I (and I know
others) were very disappointed and sad when some news
stories came out concerning the actor who played Zack in the
TBAA finale. So I ranted (you're spared reading that)
and then became obsessed with the movie Joshua
based on the books by Fr. Joseph Girzone. I think I
was trying, in a way, to mentally record Zack over with
Joshua. So... I'm totally skipping over the Zack
debacle and starting with Joshua then proceeding from that
lovely place of carpentry goodness. All brought to us
by my old Livejournal. For anyone new to this feature,
basically I just go through my old journals and separate out
the entries concerning John, TBAA, and/or JABB then
comment. Sometimes I'll throw either only tangentially
related things in like...
Jenni and Jenni Write JABB:
The First Post TBAA Months
May 26, 2003 to July 28, 2003
Subject: Carpenters' hands
Okay, anyway, about "Joshua"... So I was in a mood when I
started watching it, hoping it would cheer me up. It made
for some interesting viewing. I was really into it. I mean
I was noticing people's birthmarks and little hand
movements and... It prolly would have been creepy if I
weren't really tired. Now this was right after I'd posted
about all the bad guys I knew of or knew. There was this
one scene with Joshua working on this statue of Peter and
I was just staring at his hands. You could see a lot of
veins. They reminded me of my Grandpa's hands, only
younger. He was a carpenter, too. And a painter and a
plumber and an electrician and... a lot of stuff. He was a
really good guy. He was always really patient with my
I don't know. The whole thing seems kinda silly now but it
seemed important at the time.
Current Mood: melancholy
Me in 2013:
So I'm starting here because, well, reading that made me
tear up a little remembering my Grandpa. But it
also struck me because as a result of the TBAA
weirdness, I rewatched Joshua (numerous times
based on other entries not included here). I'm
sensing a theme... While 2003 was difficult, 2011
was infinitely more trying and sad. And so what
did I do? Brought in JABB's own version of
Joshua. That seemed an obvious solution to me but
I'd totally forgotten that I'd kinda sorta done the same
thing back in 2003. Well, if you're gonna be
redundant... may as well be redundant with Joshua.
:-) I'm really glad, though, that with 2011 I
really started to blend Joshua into the stories... not
just have him in the back of my mind. Because
what's better than just Joshua? Joshua AND
Sunday, June 8th, 2003
Subject: Back to TBAA
Well, I decided to sit down with a couple of episodes from
4th season. The first episodes I've seen, I think, since
the finale aired. I was kinda worried to watch them
because I thought one of two things might happen. 1. I'd
start crying. 2. I would think of Zack and how completely
ruined that character is. In reality, I teared up a bit
when "Great Expectations" started with a close-up of
Andrew. Didn't think of Zack for more than a second when
Monica was praying. So, it was good.
I intend to watch more tonight, though. I'm sure watching
"The Pact", "MDWA", and "How Do You Spell Faith?" will be
of great help. Yay Andrew!
Current Mood: okay
Me in 2013:
Aww... I totally forgot that I really did have a
hard time watching TBAA for a bit after the
issues. I still love the close-ups of Andrew in
GE... Here's one now! Yay Andrew! ;-)
Wednesday, June 18th, 2003
Subject: Crazy dream about YKW
It wasn't like bad or anything it was just obsessively
detailed and really odd. Shoes going missing and YKW
(begins with A, ends with W) living next door. I did not
want to wake up this time. Well, I mean not right when I
I must really not like my neighbors to the one side, I'm
forever replacing them in my dreams. Last time it was Dr.
Cox and his wife and the baby.
Current Mood: melancholy
Me in 2013:
::fidgeting:: Oh geez... What did I
dream about? I'm thinking it's not a good thing
when I refer to Andrew as YKW. But before I move
on... for anyone confused the Dr. Cox reference is from
Scrubs, a show I was really into in
2003. So moving on...
Subject: Self-indulgent sulk
I had a dream about Andrew last night. So I was kind of
out of sorts when I woke up, angry that the alarm hadn't
let it finish. I got my report card grades so I know he
wasn't there because of that. He was just there. I guess I
had been thinking about him yesterday.
I have many memories as I walk through the halls at
school. Most of friends and acquaintances but there are a
few of Andrew. I say this because I don't want people to
think he's all the place reminds me of. He's a minute
portion of it but that's the segment I'm going to focus
I was walking through the cafeteria and remembered it was
there that two friends had told me about "The Journalist"
which I had missed. It was in the same room that I got
angry at a friend for announcing to the entire lunch table
that I had a crush on Andrew before I was prepared to
admit it even to myself. I'm not really attracted to
blondes and, well, there was the angelic thing not to
mention the fictional thing. That was before I realized I
would only ever really have crushes on fictional
characters. It was in the small theatre that I wrote an
assignment, a letter from an unnamed angel in a story we
read. I signed it Andrew Wings. That was freshman year. In
the business office that had once been the main office
where I worked, I remembered sitting there alone after the
secretary told me someone had called for me and that it
may have been about my Grandpa though she could give me no
more details and scared me. That was when I heard his
voice coming from my memories, or maybe from elsewhere.
"On one side there is life..." That was sophomore year.
Later, it was in that same place that I found out my
Grandpa had died. I hadn't thought about that til just
now. The exact same place. Months later, in the gym I
listened intently to another girl as she told me about
"The Pact" which I had missed because of power outtage. We
giggled and blushed when she talked about Andrew wearing
shorts. That was junior year. Come senior year anyone
close to me knew I loved that show, though possibly not to
whom my greatest appreciation fell. So I posted quotes and
photos from the show in my locker. In the pottery room I
talked with the girl who had then been my closest friend
and who is now a stranger. We talked about our favorite
shows, hers was "X-Files" and she loved Mulder. It was to
her that I first mentioned something of JABB, though not
much. We joked about what we would do when the shows
ended. Black arm bands and all. It was there I said I
didn't worry much. By the time my show ended I would be
out of college and then I might be too busy anyway. I have
two years of college left...
Current Mood: contemplative
Me in 2013:
I wanna know details on that dream!!!!!!!!!
Geez. What the heck was going on that I didn't
write em down?
Oh well. Reading this was really bittersweet
but mostly sweet. I'd totally forgot that the
"crushes on fictional characters" thing dated back to
then. I can't for sure explain why but I think it
had something to do with feeling like it was wrong to
say I had a crush on an actor when I didn't actually
know that actor and, thus, was really only basing the
crush on public persona which generally meant the
characters they played. One wonders if I actually
knew the definition of "crush." It doesn't really
imply a deep, personal connection and understanding of
the crush. I definitely had (and have!) a crush on
John (who I believe I've even referred to as the Crush
of Crushes)... and also Andrew and Doc Hock and...
Not Manion. Definitely not Manion. Ha!
To date my old high school is still pretty Andrew
and John saturated to me. In fact, when I
eventually write that Dyeland story about bullies...
guess where it's set? And Andrew's classroom will
be the same place where I wrote the Andrew Wings letter
(an assignment we were given after reading Gabriel
Garcia Marquez's phenomenal A Very Old Man
With Enormous Wings: A Tale For Children.
Just cause I loved that room.
In the days following John's death, I thought a lot
about that incident when the secretary unwittingly
freaked me out and I heard the wonderful "On one
side..." quote. That still comforts me so much.
Sunday, June 22nd, 2003
Subject: Creative rut
I think I need to figure out some new system with JABB or
something. I started to write what I thought would be
really funny but instead turned into a lot of sap. I'll
have to send it as is cause I don't have time for a
rewrite. But I have to stop letting the sappiness seep in.
It's just weird to think I watched that show for nearly
half my life and now it's gone. Nine of my 20 years. And
that I've spent a fourth of my life writing JABB is... lol
Wow. Well, I should be getting ready for bed.
Current Mood: melancholy
Me in 2013:
Well, now I don't feel so bad about sometimes still
getting into ruts. :-)
Here's the JABB I wrote. Sure, it's sappy.
But I actually kinda like it still.
I wonder what twenty year old me would make of some of
the sap fests I write these days... Poor
girl. And, for the record, I've now been watching
TBAA for 14 of my 30 years and have spent... wait for
it... half my years writing JABB.
Thursday, June 26th, 2003
Subject: 27 days...
In 27 days I will be 21. I didn't really think much of it
until I had that dream about Andrew. Considering how much
I liked him, I dream of him pretty seldom. When I do, it
usually means something. Like when I'd dream about him
right around finals or graduation. I knew something was up
when I dreamed this last time. I felt different when I
woke up. Like something had come to an end. I think
childhood has officially ended.
I didn't much think about it til a couple nights ago when
I got the hiccups and couldn't get to sleep. So I got
online and, for want of something better to do, started a
search to see if I could find any info on the Joshua
sequel. I didn't find much. But something had rumor of a
prequel with a young Joshua. Not sure how I'm supposed to
understand "young". My initial reaction was "No! He has to
be older than me. He's always older than me!" Then it
really hit me. In one way I was right. Joshua, the real
one, will always be older than me. But that's not what I
meant. I meant he should always look older than me. Like
my Dad always looks older than me. If it's meant to be,
one day I'll be 40. And he wouldn't look older than me
cause when I think of him I think of him as mid to late
30s. So then I thought, what if I live to 80. Then I'll
look older than my Grandpa as I remember him. This is just
really weird stuff... I suppose I'll just have to have
some sort of crisis at age 34 or at least 38. That might
be fun. ;-)
Current Mood: pensive
Me in 2003:
What the heck was in that dream!?!? ::having
visions of self scouring actual hardcopy journals later
to find out::
Also, I totally forgot that at one point there was
talk of a Joshua prequel or
sequel. Now I'm kinda glad that didn't
happen. I think I needed to kinda go searching for
Joshua myself... not just watch films.
And I kinda suspect 21 year old me was the one
having a crisis... Although I will admit that I do
sometimes still have a hard time realizing that I will,
in all likelihood and one day soon, have lived
longer than 33 years.
I no longer think childhood officially ended
there. I think lil bits of it lingered and then
fell away. But then sometimes bits come back,
too. So that's good.
Sunday, June 29th, 2003
Subject: TV Trivia
It was the weirdest thing! My TV company has this channel
where you get a set of 20 TV trivia questions a week. So I
was doing those and the third question was "Which seraph
was the "Angel of Death" on "Touched by an Angel"? Monica,
Tess, or Andrew. Then the fourth question was "On "Beauty
and the Beast" what animal did Vincent's face most
resemble?" Lion, panther, or tiger. I just thought it was
odd. I think Andrew and Vincent are stalking me... :-)
Current Mood: amused
Me in 2013:
Sometimes it's good to be stalked. :-)
Tuesday, July 15th, 2003
Subject: Stupid, stupid, stupid...
Okay, so I totally deleted all the graphics for the JABB
pages and my own pages. I thought I was *copying* the gifs
into a clip art program. Turns out I *moved* them. So they
were still all there just on a CD ROM in all sorts of
categories and no longer in the appropriate folder. So I
spent a couple hours here fixing that... Also, put all my
LJ pics on there by mistake. So all my family members can
see my psychotic Andrew icon. Thankfully, I caught that...
Then turns out I never backed up my own webpages. Geez! I
have no idea how, in my fervor to back things up, I
skipped that. I'm almost glad this happened despite it
being completely annoying because after the Talkcity
problem, I'll be lucky if I don't have to totally redo my
pages again eventually. Anyhow, not sure if any of this
makes sense. Have been really tired for the past 8 hours.
Intended to get to bed early but didn't happen...
Me in 2013:
Something to think about... I no longer remember this
incident at all. So there's a lesson: definitely
don't sweat the small stuff... like gifs. It is
funny to think, though, that for so long all JABB had
was gifs. No photos! Ack!
Oh and I'm not positive but I think this is what I meant
by my "psychotic Andrew icon."
Fun. :-) Although I
don't quite get why it says 1997 and not 1996.
Sunday, July 20th, 2003
So I'll be 21 Thursday. I guess I should look at my
life. Before I do that just a warning that if I start to
sound maudlin, don't be alarmed. I am okay. I feel kinda
giggly but cannot deny that there wasn't some definite
eye leakage while watching TBAA earlier (Pandora's Box,
gosh Andrew looked manly bashing that puter) while I was
arranging my TBAA articles and stuff. Anyhow, here
Friends- Really okay. Internet friends are good but do
continue to worry some of the people I don't talk to
really regularly will disappear even more frequently
with TBAA's cancellation.
Romance- Non-existent as continue to be attracted only
to: men with the last name of Darcy, disturbed men who
look vaguely like "Jesus" (the white/fake version), and
one particular angel of death who I'm getting
increasingly sappy over at points. All being fictional.
Plus side is have not been dumped, cheated on, or
"should take a break and see other people". Negative
side is THEY'RE FAKE.
Psychological- Up, down, all around. But figure anything
is better than complete break with emotions circa
October of 11th grade. Plus it compensates for
boringness in other areas.
Room- Very good. I think I may need a new filing cabinet
though. Can then put extra bookshelf where old filing
cabinet is and new filing cabinet (with one extra
drawer) by air vent. Also, ceiling is painted which
makes me much happier. On negative side air conditioning
still does not work so cannot spend much time there. Oh
Family- Love having Joshy around this year. He makes me
much happier. So cute. I think I could be happy
unmarried, devoted to a fictional angel, and being
mother to pound puppies. Has slightly romantic tinge to
it. Bonus points if I can somehow leave behind lovelorn
letters to Andrew behind for people to find when I die.
When I'm older I mean. Just thinking it would be jolly
good fun watching from Heaven as people try and figure
out who Andrew was.
Religion- Good. Still at odds with my church but then
that may change soon with impending change of priest.
That and numerous other disappointments caused good
bonding experience with members of the Trinity though.
Yay. Won't say much else as would get way too lengthy.
Well, that's it for now. Back to TBAA scrapbook and,
well, maybe TBAA. Would like to watch a CB movie but
will prolly cry because I get depressed watching those
alone since I only watch them with friends. Besides,
Current Mood: nostalgic
Me in 2013:
I had to majorly edit that one... especially the Friends
and Family sections... so as to protect folks'
privacy. Good ol' Joshy. I hope he's kicking
back cream sodas in Heaven with his Namesake.
I'm really amused by the fact that nearly 21 year old me
thought it would be "jolly good fun" to screw with my
descendants' minds via faux love letters. I'd be
lying if I didn't say some part of me doesn't still
think that'd be darn hysterical. But I promise I
won't do that.
And Andrew DOES look darn manly in "Pandora's Box"!
And to my Internet friends reading this: Thanks for
sticking around or finding your way here. :-)
Monday, July 21st, 2003
Birthday fun- Part 1
Well, today one of the ladies at work gave me my
"reject" birthday present. It was intended to be part
of my actual present but then she thought it looked
sloppy, or something. I thought it was fantastic. It's
a wall clock that she recovered in this adorable frog
material. So cute! I would have been happy with just
Then I went to the mall with Grandma and Mom. I was
under the impression we were only returning something
for Mom but turns out we were shopping for me. I was
*not* in the mood but eventually got into it. Ended up
with three skirts and seven shirts. All for under
$100. One shirt, alone, was originally $54. Insane!
There were some brief, scary moments in the men's
section. Mom and Grandma were looking for a shirt my
brother wanted. Me? I was looking at clothes and
thinking "Andrew'd look good in that... Ooh and that
sweater, too..." I completely OD'ed over the weekend.
I watched a few episodes of TBAA and made a scrapbook
with all the clippings I kept from the show. Plus with
it being JABB's anniversary... It was all very
Current Mood: pleased
Me in 2013:
Awww. I forgot about the "reject gift." I'm
looking at it right now. It's hanging in this room
and I still think it's awesome.
Anyhow, I included this one because I STILL go shopping
like that. In fact, not terribly long after that,
I started buying clothes for Andrew and then donating
them to a homeless shelter. It was so much
fun. I need to do that again sometime. I
also like this one cause I like revisiting how in a mere
two months I went from avoiding TBAA to ODing on
it. Yay for ODing on TBAA!
July 22nd, 2003
Subject: One more day til 21...
So I feel like I should be allowed to indulge myself. So I
watched another Andrew-ific TBAA episode. Tonight it was
the one where the kid wants to divorce his parents. Geez,
it's too bad Andrew couldn't father lovely fake children.
But I'll rewind a bit.
It was cooler today so we opened the windows in the house.
I hadn't opened mine yet but wanted it to be at least
somewhat cool while watching the show. Went to open the
window. Wouldn't budge. Tried again. And again. Suddenly
heard cracking noise and realized window had broken. With
my hands on it. Had vision of Tony Goldwyn getting impaled
in "Ghost" and was freaked out my hands would have been
sliced up in like manner. (Why it didn't occur to me that
my hands didn't actually hurt, I don't know). Anyhow,
amazingly I only have two tiny spots that look more like I
stabbed myself with a needle, one tiny cut, and a larger
one where only a layer of skin sliced a bit. So no blood.
I was stunned cause that thing just shattered! Thank God
cause if I had really cut myself I'd have prolly passed
out and that really woulda caused some damage (to room and
self). Oh yeah, got my ID with no problem at all! Anyhow,
that's enough for now, still have to pick out tomorrow's
outfit. Also, goal list for tomorrow:
Get new filing cabinet and switch files from old one.
Label video tapes, there's only like 3. You can manage
Have bank start emailing me balance statements.
Think of Andrew themed message for chalkboard. Putting a
pink heart around his name will *not* suffice and could
Current Mood: happy
Me in 2013:
love for open windows lingers. I just opened mine
now for the first time in a while. And holy
cow... I totally forgot about the window
breaking. Scary. Definitely had an angel
with me on that!
date I still
use John's projects as "prizes" and "indulgences."
It's funny to read these and really get just how long
some of my habits have been going on. And the
chalkboard? No clue what I put on it for my
birthday but currently reads "I am what I am." Doc
Hock (and Popeye) would be proud, I think.
July 23rd, 2003
Well... this is it. After I wake up tomorrow I can never,
ever be accused of underage drinking. I made it. Nothing
for a whole 21 years! Not that I think this is a
particularly great accomplishment, just weird to think
Anyhow, I plan to spend my last night as a 20 year old
watching another Andrewish TBAA episode and weeding old
files out of my filing cabinet since I could not find a
larger one... But I did get my bookshelf together. And
label the videos.
Tomorrow they're taking me to a great restaurant for
Current Mood: good
Me in 2013:
Now... if underage drinking had referred to
caffeine... I would have been a delinquent.
That was funny to read.
I'm glad I spent my last night as a 20 year old watching
Andrewish TBAA. And organizing. I can't
remember exactly but methinks my last day of my 20s
involved a bit of both, too.
July 27th, 2003
Subject: Blah... Too hot
It's after midnight and still 90 degrees in my room. And I
want to sleep but I know I'll just toss and turn in that
heat. So I got back online and I was staring at the
temperature icon in the corner with a heavenly 68 degrees
displayed. And so then I just started thinking about
Andrew after having typed "heavenly". Too bad it's too hot
to go and watch an episode... I hope I can get an air
conditioner or something to help the situation...
Current Mood: hot
Me in 2013:
And now here I sit so tired of the cold... Lovely,
heavenly Andrew... So I did get back to sleep and
the next entry is one heckuva dream. Though not
the dream I kept going on about above... that one's
still a mystery.
Subject: Andrew and Monica sitting
in a tree...
I had the weirdest dream last night. Probably caused by
watching TBAA in an attempt to forget my room was really
I seemed to have been watching TV because not only do I
remember the action "on-screen" but also my own running
commentary about it, like I was separate from it. So I
seemed to be watching TBAA. Monica and Andrew seemed to
have, well, died. But I don't remember being sad just
"Huh?" That's only the way I interpretted what happened.
But I never saw anyone die or anything that might lead
to death (violence, health scare, etc.) Now I realize
one or both of them could have been dreaming, what
followed could have been some sort of alternate view
like in the episode where Satan shows M her life as a
human, and others. But I remember thinking "That's
weird. When angels die they become human cause when we
die we become like angels." What brought this on was
when the show came back both of them were asleep in a
normal type of bedroom. Which was mildly creepy but
since everything stayed at the TV-G level I won't make
an issue out of it. When they woke up they didn't seem
at all surprised. I was like "Umm..." So they got up,
started getting ready for work or something (what type
of work they would now have I don't know). Monica
noticed her skirt was a little tight. Suddenly Tess
comes in and tells her she's pregnant. Yay Monica and
Andrew! Andrew was so cute here. I remember thinking
"Well, the shippers will be happy." Everyone's happy,
I'm excited to see what will obviously be an adorable
baby but at the same time thinking "Umm..." Then
suddenly it shifts again. Andrew and Tess are gone. It's
just a rather distraught Monica and some woman. Monica
starts crying and seems to have gone amnesiac again. She
tells the woman she can't remember who/where her father
is. What?!? I know! I know! End credits roll and there's
a stupid voiceover. "TBAA will not be returning next
season but watch for our two hour movie in (some month)
when (name of woman in previous scene) helps Monica
search for her father." So I'm thinking maybe the whole
M and A married bit was Monica trying to fit together
how different people figured into her life. Like she had
a memory of A and T but wasn't sure who they were and
since she didn't know she was an angel she put them in
slots as if they were all human: husband and friend. I
was just happy cause even though it seemed rather
insane, the show was coming back in some form. And I
somehow knew Andrew was going to be in it then. 0:-)
Current Mood: touched
Me in 2013:
That makes me kinda sad... Cause, of course, TBAA
never did come back. And, for the record, while I
was never a shipper, I do feel like an episode like the
one I dreamed about would have been
fun/interesting. Mostly I feel like it woulda been
funny to see the preview for the allegedly married
Andrew and Monica, watch people flip out (myself
included), and then realize it was a huge
Interestingly, I've actually now had dreams like that
where I've slated people I know in life into different
slots. I'm pretty sure you've all been my sisters
a time or two. ;-) And I think once John was
our RA... And he wore all black and sorta looked
like he did in "The Comeback," I think. Apparently
I felt like we all shoulda gone to college together.
Subject: Weird TBAA-related question
Okay, just pretend for a second the show is real. I
was thinking about this last night while watching TBAA
and Andrew said/did something very "Joshuan". Okay, we
have the Trinity. The Father is obviously Andrew's
father. But what about the Son? I generally think of
the Father as my Father, Jesus as my Brother (though
still also Father in some ways) because He has the
same Father (though in a different way) as the rest of
us and is human. But Andrew is not human. So would
Jesus be Andrew's father or brother? LOL I know, I
should just go right to sleep when I start thinking
this kind of crazy stuff. This may partly have been
what caused my dream.
Current Mood: amused
Me in 2013:
I was seriously just thinking about this! So... I
really have no idea how actual angels relate to actual
Jesus. But here's the way I conceive of the Andrew
and Joshua relationship: Joshua is Andrew's brother but
it would sort of be like if my parents had another baby
now. I would be the baby's sister but given I
would have been a fully cognizant adult from the first
news of the pregnancy on... I'd also sorta feel like a
third parent. So, yeah, Joshua is Andrew's
fatherly brother. Where the metaphor breaks down
is whereas I would have had nothing to do with the
creation of my hypothetical sibling, I do think Joshua
had a hand in Andrew's creation (and all of creation for
that matter). As for what the division of labor,
so to speak, was with the Trinity... Something to
ask in Heaven!
Subject: I am using this icon way, way too much
Okay... So I've really been in an organizing sort of mood
so I started taking inventory of my books but all that
typing started to get to me. So I switched to organizing
my filing cabinet. I was in my school file when I came
across a homework assignment from 8th grade that I was
supposed to write from an angel. Naturally I signed it
with Andrew's name. Promptly burst into tears upon finding
it. Granted it could have been the sad music playing on
the TV show I was watching. Also coulda been that Freshman
year was rather hideous but I kinda doubt it. Almost half
my life I spent watching that show at some level or
another... Just ignore I'm in a mood. Give me a year or
two and I'm sure I'll be just fine. :-)
Current Mood: sad
Me in 2013:
I meant 9th grade, not 8th. And that was the same
letter I alluded to above. So... I've given myself
not just another one or two years but nearly 10.
Still not over TBAA. Or Andrew. Or
John. Totally cool with that. :-)
I'm not positive but I think this may have been the icon
I was talking about. The icons didn't get saved
correctly so can't be sure.
July 28th, 2003
Almost time to go home. Everything was rushing by for
nearly the whole day until I ran out of work about an
hour and a half ago. Oh well. I started working on this
idea for JABB which kinda helped. Naturally I'll have to
run it by Aud first but I think it could be fun. I'm
considering it JABB's "sweeps". Depending on how this
idea goes, I'll either want JABB to continue or discuss
"cancellation" with Aud. Sometimes I just get the
feeling I'm writing for myself alone. But that's enough
of that. Maybe I'll email her now about it before I
Current Mood: excited
Me in 2013:
Okay, it's time to fess up... JABB was
canceled in 2003. You've all been living in an
alternate world in which JABB continues, trapped in
a snow globe I keep on my bookshelf.
;-) I really have no idea what my big idea
was. But obviously I decided not to cancel
JABB. I wonder if maybe it was the Andrew on
trial for murder story? Or maybe just really
getting into Dyeland mode? Dunno.
Well, I shall end there on that "not really a
cliffhanger" cause this got way longer than I
this newsletter is dedicated to John being super
awesome as Andrew in "Beautiful Dreamer."
April 26th is Promotion Day and since a newsletter
won't be sent then, I wanted to acknowledge it
here. I have loved that episode for a long
time just cause I thought John looked super cute in
the period clothes and because the episode just
really touched me. As I think about it now,
I'm drawn to how Andrew came to realize that beauty
can come from failure and that there is hope and
light even in the face of tragedy. Big thanks
to John for reminding us of those truths in so many
ways, so many times.
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