You're my home.
Stay with me."
―Belle in Beauty and the
lyrics by Tim Rice
Well, this is it! The end of the longest story I've ever
written. All in all, I'm pretty pleased with how it turned out...
although I wish I hadn't done that half-awake Spell Check two days
ago! If you notice anything completely awry, it's probly due to
that so please tell me.
I'm kinda sad to have this end. Beyond the obvious (I <3
Andrew), this one was important to me cause I feel like it's, thus far,
the best blend of the worlds of BatB, TBAA, ML, and our own Dyeland
that I've done. Envisioning this, parts looked like a BatB
episode to me and other parts a ML episode. It felt good to have
those shows back for a lil bit.
Big thanks to Nicole for, once again, proofreading this and discussing
the awesomeness of Andrew with me. And to God for pushing
together all the pieces of real life that inspired some of the elements
of this story. And, while I'm at it, thanks to real life angels
and people who make the selfless choices Andrew and others do in this
I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving!
PS- In case you hadn't already figured this out, the dates switch over
at midnight. So while the story starts shortly after midnight on
Nov. 24th, some might still consider it the night of the 23rd.
At first Catherine didn't recognize
it. She'd been so sure it wouldn't be needed... at least not
yet. Not when she had so few guests beyond the Dyelanders.
But with a start she recognized the noise: the security alarm!
Someone had either entered or left the house!
Vincent bolted awake. "Catherine!" He leapt out of bed and
went to the door.
"No! You stay. Keep watch over Jacob. I'll go see...
you'll know if I need help." She kissed him swiftly then ran
through the office and up the stairs. The back door was still
locked and bolted. No windows were ajar. She moved into the
hallway. It was then she heard movement upstairs. Turning
into the staircase, she
nearly collided with Rose.
"What's going on?" the young woman asked.
"It's the security alarm!" Catherine shouted, making her way to the
panel hidden in the living room closet. The noise
immediately stopped. Moving back, she noticed the front
door. It was locked. But the sliding bolt at the top was
undone. Someone had left and locked the door behind them.
"Psyche..." she murmured. She'd known her cousin missed Andrew
desperately. She also knew she was unaware of the security
system, she'd only been told about the separate one protecting the
room Vincent shared.
Rose and Catherine leapt up the stairs and tore into JenniAnn's room.
The blonde woman had abandoned the rocking chair where she'd
fallen asleep and was trying to console Shelby. The little girl
was whimpering and still had her ears covered. The two agitated
clamored to hide under
Catherine sighed with relief. "The alarm went off. I
thought maybe you'd gone looking for And..." A queasy feeling
came over Catherine then. There was still another person who
might have been more than willing to leave the shelter to search for
him. Someone who felt left alone, mourning one friend and
terrified for two others.
Cira tore into the room, sobbing. "Maggie's gone! When I
heard the alarm I thought maybe she'd just tripped
it somehow getting up to go to the bathroom or something. But I
can't find her!"
Everyone turned to see Josephine standing in the hall, holding a piece
of paper out to her host.
"I found it on the floor of my room. She must have slid it under
Rose shook her head, staring at the note. "I-I must have ran
Catherine took the missive from Josephine and began to read. As
she did Rose moved into the hallway and phoned the police. "Dear
Josephine, please thank everyone for their time, care, compassion, and
love. What's being done at the Phoenix is a true inspiration and
means so much. I hope to return soon. With Andrew. Or
at least after having spoken to him. I need to. But if that
doesn't happen, if I don't find him and need more time... good bye for
now. You really do remind me of my grandmother and, though she
couldn't be with me, I'm thankful that you could. Peace, Maggie."
"We should have told her... Told her more about him!" JenniAnn
Cira looked at her curiously.
"Maggie's going to bring us Andrew!" Shelby chirped, oblivious to the
seriousness of the escape.
Josephine squeezed JenniAnn's hand. "Sweetheart, you know it
wasn't your place to do that."
"I shouldn't have gone to bed. I should have kept watch..."
Catherine lamented. "I'm going out to look for her!"
Before anyone could argue, she left the room and hurried into her
overcoat. "The rest of you stay here," she called. "Call
Adam, Mick, whomever you can think of. Psyche, will you and
Shelby please go check on
A second later Catherine was out the door and soon the car was pulling
into the street.
"Yes, I realize she's an adult but she's definitely endangered...
because she's homeless. She ran away from our shelter.
No... but you don't understand!" Rose cried into the phone.
Cira took it from her. "Listen to me. You know what's
going on out there. We're telling you that a young woman left the
shelter unaccompanied and unprotected. Do something! No,
she wasn't being 'willful' or 'ungrateful'! She left to find a
As the emergency call became more constructive, Rose and Josephine
called Adam and Mick.
JenniAnn left the room, balancing Shelby on her hip, and ran to where
Vincent waited with Jacob. "Catherine left. Maggie
ran off and she went looking for her."
"That was my worry. I'll go look for her, as well."
"But what if..." JenniAnn eyed her godfather, taking in his
clothing. She'd always regarded them as regal but to others...
Vincent embraced her. "I'll be back by
sunlight." He glanced at the alarm clock. "It's barely
after 4:00. I will have over two hours. I must use
them. I'll have a message sent to you if Catherine doesn't
relay it for me." He kissed her, Jacob's, and Shelby's foreheads
left by way
of the Tunnels.
JenniAnn stood, frozen and feeling helpless.
"Papa's going to help Mama," Jacob assured, hugging her.
"And find Andrew!" Shelby added.
"I-I hope so but we're not sure of that, Shelby. Andrew may still
have work to do." JenniAnn hated to see the little girl's face
fall. She made a lame attempt at distraction. "Let's go
upstairs and get some breakfast started."
When JenniAnn and the children reemerged from the basement, she
discovered that two
officers and Mick had already arrived. The latter approached once
JenniAnn had the kids settled down with waffles.
"Vincent?" Mick asked.
"Out looking, too."
Mick squeezed her shoulder. "He knows how to take care of himself
and we can use every pair of eyes we can get."
JenniAnn opened her mouth to speak.
Rose, too, heard Mick's remark and drew closer. "Maybe we..."
The P.I. shook his head. "But not yours. Stay here.
Maggie will need you girls when
we bring her back," he assured with his most confident smile.
Rose and JenniAnn pretended not to see the worry lurking in his eyes.
Andrew saw the dove clamoring at
the window near his cot. He sat up and looked around. No
one was keeping watch. He walked into a small room, barely more
than a closet, that had been turned into a chapel.
"Father, what is it? What do you want me to..." The answer
came before he had finished asking for it. "No... A-another
one?" He stared down at his hands, immaculate as they emerged
from the white sleeves of his suit.
Next thing he knew, he was back "home." A chill crept through him
as he stood in the alley. He wondered if Crystal had, at last,
returned. If that was the case then his current form meant only
one thing... he was taking her Home. Andrew felt pulled to the
dumpster. It was the same one Maggie had hid behind only days
before. Bracing himself, he looked for Crystal or some other
person who had fallen victim to the killers. It was then he
glimpsed a lock of red hair.
"No..." he moaned, falling to his knees. He pulled Maggie to him,
gently rocking her. "Ma-maggie... It's Andrew," he
She tried to speak but the gash to her throat made it impossible.
"I-I know...," Andrew assured her. "I missed you, too.
Maggie, I'm an angel sent by God. I was sent here to tell you and
Ryan and Crystal how much He loves you. How special..."
She stroked his cheek.
Andrew let the tears pooling in his eyes fall. "You are so
special to God. And you've become so special to me. All
three of you did and I wish... I wish I could have protected you and
Ryan. I'm so, so sorry I couldn't. So sorry this has
happened to you... And G-God is, too. But now... now you
will never feel any pain again and you'll be able to feel His love so
fully... more fully than my words or any can ever, ever express.
Maggie, it's time to go Home. To a Home that will always,
always be there for you... my friend."
Maggie's hand fell from his face. She turned her head, rested it
against the angel's chest, and drew her last breath.
The sobs drew Vincent into the
alley. The sun was beginning to peek out and he'd nearly gone
Below but something had spurred him on. Now he knew what it
was. Spotting the figure beside the dumpster, Vincent sprinted to
him. He immediately saw that Andrew was cradling someone.
Based on Catherine's description, he knew the girl to be Maggie.
"Andrew, I am so very sorry," he whispered, kneeling beside the angel
and setting a hand on his shoulder.
"Sh-she's safe now," the angel murmured.
"Yes, you brought her to safety."
Andrew shook his head. "God did... because I failed to by other
"Maggie survived so much... An abusive marriage, an attempted
rape at a shelter... that's why she refused to go to any un-until the
Phoenix. Why did I push her, Vincent? Maybe if I'd kept her
with me... She came here looking for me! She's dead because
of me!" the distraught angel cried.
"It's not for us to know, Andrew. Perhaps if you had kept her
close, this may still have befallen her. And you did not cause
death! People who chose to do evil did. Andrew, return to
the Phoenix with me. The ladies need to see you and I think you
need to see them."
Adamant, Andrew shook his head. "No." Pleading, he looked
into Vincent's eyes. "Tell them I love them. Tell them I'll
see them as soon as I can. But right now I need to find
Crystal. Hopefully I won't fail her, too." He reverently
laid Maggie down then stood.
"Andrew, listen to me. You have not fail..."
"Tell Catherine where she is. Please. I-I don't want her
left out here."
Before Vincent could argue or plead further, Andrew ran down
the alley. Vincent looked up at the lightening sky and knew his
only option was to wait Below and tell Catherine where the body was
when she returned.
Joe stared at the girl's
Adam watched him as he ran a few yards off and began wildly kicking
"If I find them... I'm gonna kill 'em, Adam. I want to kill
them. With my own two hands."
The angel shook his head. "No, you don't. Joe, you've
dedicated your life to this city, this country and its laws. You
won't break them."
Joe rested his forehead against the cool stone of a nearby wall.
"You're right. But we have to find them, Adam."
Mick watched the scene with sadness then turned back to Maggie's
form. He could sense that Andrew had been there. He tried
not to imagine how that scene had unfolded. He also tried to
dismiss any thoughts of what the angel of death was thinking and
feeling at that moment. He knew it couldn't be good. In the
two years since Mick had formally met Andrew, he'd recognized three
chief things about the angel. The first was that when Andrew grew
attached to someone, he felt the attachment deeply and eternally.
When that person suffered, so did he. The second was that Andrew
felt a responsibility to his charges that far outlasted any
assignment. That much was obvious in the case of Josef's Sarah
and, in speaking with the Dyelanders, Mick had gathered that she was
from the only example. The third, blessedly, was that Andrew
never lost sight of the goodness and devotion of God.
Though he railed against cruelty and mourned those who fell victim to
it, Andrew never forgot that an eternity of love awaited his
Mick guessed it was this optimism that kept Andrew among the ranks of
the angels of death. Yet, Andrew's compassion sometimes kept him
from enjoying the eternal
peace to which he brought his assignments. Mick knew that God,
all-loving, would have taken His
grieving servant Home after losing a friend. But Andrew had free
will, as well. And Mick knew it had led him back to the streets,
searching for his sole surviving assignment.
Sighing, Mick pulled himself out of his musings and focused on the task
at hand as Adam continued to encourage Joe. Inhaling deeply, Mick
jolted. Maggie's scent was the most obvious. Andrew's was
at the periphery of his senses. But there was another... Mick
crept towards where it grew stronger. His gaze fell on a bit of
metal. It was half of a pair of scissors. Clearly beyond
usefulness, he figured it had been thrown away. Perhaps Maggie
had found it. Maybe she'd used it in an attempt to fight
back. Maybe it was one of the killers' blood that he
smelled. Leaning down and inhaling again, he committed it to
memory then stood up.
"Hey, get over here!" he called to the forensics team as they pulled
into the alley. "I think I may have found something!"
Joe and Adam rushed over and watched as the halved scissors were placed
in a bag.
Joe shook his head. "But even if their DNA is on there... likely
not in the system. The other sample we found wasn't."
"Pray, Joe," Adam advised.
Catherine had relocated everyone to
Vincent's mother's former home where they shared a sullen lunch.
Afterwards, she returned to the Phoenix alone, packed up the things
she had given to Maggie, and switched Cira's belongings to another
room. She didn't want the latter to spend the remainder of her
time in the same room she'd shared with her tragic roommate. Rose
and Josephine kept Cira company at the second house.
JenniAnn had offered to take Shelby to Mary and Jacob to his father as
worked. Upon entering Vincent's chamber, she was immediately
swept up into a hug.
"Psyche, I am so sorry. I know you and the other ladies had
She bowed her head sadly and nodded. "Yes, but now she's with a
better Friend than
any of us could ever be."
"This is true but it doesn't mean you and the others cannot grieve for
"I know. Here." She cuddled Jacob for a moment more then
handed him to Vincent. "V-vincent?"
"When you saw Andrew... h-how did he seem?"
Vincent embraced his son then set him down. Once Jacob has
toddled off to his toy box, Vincent reached for his godchild's
"Psyche, I fear he has taken Maggie's passing very harshly. He
would not consent to return to the Phoenix. While he sent his
love to each of you, right now he feels he must devote all his energy
to finding Crystal. And we must allow him that."
Attempting to control the feelings raging inside of her, JenniAnn
breathed deeply. "Thank you. I'll come back later. I
to rest. In my chamber."
Vincent watched mutely as she left. Her calmness made him fear
for her and he was not convinced that whatever dangerous thoughts were
flitting through her mind weren't shared by her friends.
Andrew hurriedly walked the city
streets, paying no attention to either the disgusted or
compassionate looks that his presence brought about. His eyes
darted around, disregarding human faces. He was looking for
something else. An angel's face. The singing angel.
Stained glass or stone, he had to find it. He had to find
her. He kept up his search for hours, never stopping. At
one point a
woman approached him, offering him food and water but he
refused. There was something vaguely familiar about her but his
mind didn't make a connection. It simply didn't seem
continued his search, oblivious as the woman and a man trailed after
"Message for Psyche!"
JenniAnn rolled over to face the entryway when she heard Mouse's
voice. "For me?" she asked with surprise. It wasn't often
she got notes Below. For a moment her heart soared before she
glimpsed the decidedly feminine script. It couldn't be
Andrew. She held her hand out. "Thank you, Mouse."
He looked expectantly at her but quickly gathered that she had no
intention of letting him know the contents of the message. With a
shrug, he left her chamber.
Disinterested, JenniAnn unfolded the note. Her heart began to
race as she read the words.
"Dear Psyche, I spotted Andrew and thought you should know. He
looked frightful. I
tried to offer him food and water but I don't think he remembered
me. He darted away. Henry and I followed. He's in the
the abandoned tannery near the train yard. Be careful!"
The last two words were underlined three times. JenniAnn lifted
her eyes, praying in thanksgiving for the Helpers, Lin and Henry, who
had sent her the message. She immediately grabbed her cloak and
ran from her chamber.
Jacob to sleep and brought him to Mary, Vincent was praying for his
grieving and worried loved ones when he heard bickering out in the
passageway. A moment
later, Owen and JenniAnn entered.
"Tell him!" the young man shouted. "Tell Vincent about that plot
of yours! Psyche, I supported you up to this point. I know
you care about Andrew but this foolishness... Are you trying to
get yourself killed?"
Vincent stared at his
grave concern. She didn't need to say a word. He knew her
plot. He knew it because it had
been his countless times through the years. He'd cast off
Father's concern for his safety so many times when he'd gone Above to
protect Catherine. For a fleeting moment, Vincent considered
the woman but reason won out.
"Owen, thank you. Now please leave Psyche and me to discuss
this," Vincent requested.
"Of course." Before leaving he hugged his friend. "I care
about you. Don't think I don't understand. And don't think
I don't care about Andrew. I do. But I'm not letting you do
JenniAnn bowed her head but did not answer.
Owen left and Vincent approached.
"You intended to go Above, alone, to find Andrew?"
She nodded. "Henry and Lin saw him... they sent me a message but
please don't be angry with them. I-I had planned it out.
Rose knew I was going. We agreed that I'd keep my cell phone in
my hand and keep it on speaker and she'd have hers and if I needed help
then she would call
for it immediately."
angry with anyone. Merely concerned that you would consider such
a thing. I won't let you go,
is too dangerous!" Vincent shook his head, attempting to banish
troubling visions. "What if something were to happen and you
be unable to communicate that to Rose? What if help were too late
arriving? The sun has not yet fully set and I cannot protect
you," he told her, his
voice soft and sympathetic as he embraced her.
pulled away and,
back on him, moved to exit his chamber. "I didn't ask you to protect
me! And I am
going Above. Andrew is there and he's hurting and...
and..." She twisted her ring around her finger wildly. "I
him. I need to go to him."
pity, a stronger paternal force caused him to let out a rumbling
growl. "You will not!" he bellowed.
on the receiving
Vincent's anger, JenniAnn shuddered.
was sorry to
frightened her but seeing defiance yet on her face, he could not stop
and console her yet. "Psyche, my child, I know you love
Andrew.... deeply... and I know, having
felt it myself, how your stomach churns... your heart aches... your
hands shake from uselessness in thinking of leaving him alone among
unkind hearts and in grief. I have marked the growth of your
love for him and I know it is now immense. But I... I
have seen his love, too. I have seen the love he bears for you
all. And it is that love I must defend now, that love which
forbids me from allowing you to do this."
struck by the tears and understanding there.
took her hands in his. "I
recognize there are
of love and I know you have insisted, unceasingly, that no one type is
superior to the others. Yet... I fear you have not fully believed
your own words. Whatever love you feel for Andrew, you do think
it not just different but greater than his for you."
opened her mouth to
but only bowed her head.
showing your love for him. You tell me that your love is so great
that you will risk your safety... your life... for him. But
please, Psyche, try to see it all from Andrew's perspective." The
tears began to splash down Vincent's cheeks as he recalled Andrew's
anguish over Maggie. "He will never be in love with
you nor with anyone and I know you would not wish it
otherwise. But it does not follow that he loves you less because
To risk your life... claiming your love for him as
reason to do it... disregarding the protection of *his* love and his
desire that you be well... you do elevate your love above his.
pain now but imagine his if you were to go Above and harm befall
you! He has felt such pain enough today!"
Beginning to sob, the woman turned away from her godfather and stared
intently at a clock on his dresser. Andrew had given it to him on
his fiftieth birthday.
Vincent moved to her side to look at her but her hair hid her
face. He could not judge whether she was listening or
if she still intended to run. Fearing the latter, he
continued. "No matter what happens, Andrew will survive this and
be returned to the love of his friends, yourself included. But
you... there are things in this world you cannot survive. And if
you were to go Above now and meet one of them, Andrew will not be
comforted by the fact that, with love for him, you met your end.
No, he will only be grieved to have yet another he loved ruthlessly
from a world where he needs as much love as he can find. And his
grief will be greater than what you feel now. In seeking to
ease his momentary pain, you may very well leave him with a far
deeper wound. And what do you think such a loss would mean to the
rest of us?" Vincent finished, falling into his chair
and resting his head in his
hands.. He was exhausted from
admitting to a flaw in his beloved godchild that he'd kept to himself
wanted to scream at Vincent and make him apologize for
his lies. But even as she thought it, she knew she was the one
lying. It wasn't untruth on his part that angered her, it
was his making her face a lie she'd long held to believing only she
knew it. He was right. She did think her love for Andrew
superior to his for her. She had taken some bizarre pride in
it. False pride she recognized for the first time. And it
had led her to
selfishness. She had put her need to console Andrew above his
to protect her. She had nearly risked the lifetime of friendly,
affectionate, familial love she knew he desired for her own romantic
impulses and immediate need for some physical connection to him.
the chapel," she
up and watched
the room, he still felt distraught for having pained her but
relieved. He knew she would not make another attempt to
leave. A moment later, still staring at the entryway, he met
Father's gaze as he entered.
The older man shook his head;
the impassioned blur of blonde hair, cloak, and denim sent him
back twenty odd years. "Vincent?
What's happened?" He squeezed his son's shoulder.
intended to go Above in search of Andrew. I convinced her to
abandon the plan but I believe she is angry with me."
smiled sadly. "It always did with you and it was you our fleeing
Psyche reminded me of. In those days... I did find myself hoping
that one day you would know how torn I felt. That you would
understand my need to protect you, even at the cost of keeping you from
someone you loved desperately." He sighed. "Now it has come
to pass. It does not
have the feeling of vindication I thought it would. I am sorry,
Vincent. But know you did the right thing even if it does not
seem so." The old man stooped to kiss his son's hair and sat
silently keeping him company.
In the evening, Catherine moved
everyone back to the Phoenix. She knew those who had met Maggie,
and even some who had not, were struggling with their feelings and she
thought it best they work through their grief together. Sitting
down at the head
of the table, she smiled at Cira, Yva, Owen, JenniAnn, Rose, Josephine,
and Lady Beth.
"Thank you, everyone, for coming. I knew it would be difficult
coming back here but it's a little easier with so many friends with
us. I just wanted to say... I wish I could have done more for
Maggie. But I won't forget her. She'll be in my mind and in
my heart as I greet every person who comes to stay here."
Catherine began to cry and Cira took over.
"I wish I could have gotten to know her more. But I won't forget
her, either. Sometimes life on the streets can turn a person cold
and I know Maggie didn't have an easy life even before that. But
she didn't let either change her. She was a nice girl."
"A sweetheart who only needed to know someone a very brief time to
become devoted to them," Josephine added, brushing at a tear and
gratefully reaching for Rose's hand.
Drawing in a deep breath, Catherine soldiered on. "Maggie wanted
her friends to be safe. I think, in her memory, we should pray
that both Andrew and Crystal find their way home."
Without hesitation, everyone agreed.
"What should we pray?" Yva asked. "Or who wants to lead?"
"There's a psalm I used to think of when I felt lost and alone," Owen
offered. "I still do, sometimes."
Catherine smiled at him. "Do you remember it by heart?"
The man nodded, bowed his head, and began.
JenniAnn let the tears slide down her cheeks as Owen recited
the familiar words of Psalm 27.
"'One thing I have asked from the Lord, that I shall seek: that I may
dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the
beauty of the Lord and to meditate in His temple. For in the day
of trouble He will conceal me in His tabernacle; in the secret place of
His tent He will hide me; He will lift me up on a rock.'"
Vincent tossed and turned as he
tried to sleep. It had been an awful night. Josephine had
convinced Catherine to return Below and spend the night in their
chamber. Vincent had held his wife and tried to convince her she
was not to blame for Maggie's death. He did his best to dispel
every theory ranging
only she'd stayed awake to if only she'd made Zeke more aware of the
urgency of her need to locate Andrew. Eventually she had cried
herself to sleep. Vincent had never made his way to dreamland.
After several hours, he realized his insomnia was not to be helped and
up. He looked in alarm at the foot of his and Catherine's
bed. A man stood there. Their eyes met. Unable to bear the
intensity of the stare, Vincent blinked. When he opened his eyes
the figure was gone. Stunned, he fell back to the pillows.
"Love, what is it?" Catherine asked groggily.
Vincent continued to stare at where the man had been. "I-I saw
someone there..." He pointed.
"You will think I have lost my mind."
Catherine cupped his face in her hands. "I wouldn't!"
"I thought... I thought it was myself. Younger. When I
first met you."
"What do you think it means?" his wife asked.
"He disapproves of me."
"I kept Psyche from doing what I so often did myself."
Catherine sighed. "You had to Vincent. It would have been a
great risk for her to go Above alone! Even if it weren't so
dangerous, she barely knows her way
"Yes, I know. She should not have gone alone then. It was a
potentially disastrous idea. But now... perhaps, with
a guide..." Vincent buried his face in his wife's hair. "I
can remember times I witnessed terrible things. Things that broke
my heart, slashed at my spirit, left me feeling helpless. You
would come to me. Hold me. It is not that I would have died
that. I would have survived still. But there was immense
having you near. How can I keep her from that only because Andrew
Catherine wrapped her arms around Vincent and kissed him. "Go
with Psyche. Then come back to me."
"As always, my dearest one," he murmured. He embraced his wife,
hurriedly changed, and went in pursuit of his godchild.
JenniAnn sat in the Tunnel
her gaze shifting from the stained
glass window depicting a dove to her rosary. She'd wandered down
from the Phoenix hours before, unable to sleep. Tears flowed down
her face until she could barely see the beads in her hands. She
concentrate and pray but found herself unable to focus. So many
thoughts and worries plagued her. Where was Andrew? Was he
well? Did he know she was
thinking of him? That so many of them were? She prayed he
knew but how could she be sure? If he'd closed himself off
The reality of their situation hit her with a clarity it
never had before: this uncertainty and strain was her life and unless
she made a break this
how it would always be. She would forever be waiting and praying
and hoping that the Andrew who returned was no less joyful or peaceful
the Andrew who had left. There would be no retirement, no
rest for him. In the meantime, she would grow old. She
recalled how Owen had
called Rose the
baby. She was. But even she was only a few years younger
than the others. They would all grow old, God willing. And
in those years it could hardly be expected that Andrew's devastating
assignments would cease. At twenty seven her heart
was yet strong, she could be swift when she needed to be, and she had
fewer health concerns than many. Yes, Vincent had prevented her
from going after Andrew earlier. But it hadn't changed the fact
she could have rebelled and gone despite his admonishment. The
time would come, though, when her own body would forbid such
things. And how would she face his struggles then? How
would any of them? How
could they not be consumed with worry and helplessness? And what
of children? She'd known for a long time she would never bear her
own. But she knew one day she wanted to adopt. And she
wanted good, ol' "Uncle Andrew" to be a part of
their lives. Could she rightly subject small children to repeated
bouts of her own melancholy while he was away for lengthy periods of
time? She remembered Shelby sobbing into her
shoulder. What of the children's concerns for
What if she just ran away from it all? From him?
JenniAnn thought then of the anguished words of the psalmist as
Andrew and then Owen had recited them.
"Do not hide Your face from me, do not turn Your servant away in
You have been my help; do not abandon me nor forsake me, O God of my
salvation! For my father and my mother have forsaken me, but the
Lord will take me up."
In recalling the words, the woman knew who would see them all
those long days and nights to come. God would be there. He
would not forsake Andrew nor any of His angels in their journeys and He
would not forsake their friends as they stayed behind.
Further, Andrew had been a part of her life for so long. To
distance herself from him... to forsake him... would be tantamount to
losing some part of
her own being. It was impossible, like living without one's
heart. Finding the peace that
with reaching a conclusion, JenniAnn at last concentrated on her
was so deeply focused that for several minutes she didn't notice she
longer alone. Vincent sat beside her, fingering his own rosary
She waited for him to stop. "I didn't think you prayed the
"I don't." Vincent reverently held the beads his Protestant
father had carved for his Catholic mother. "But I feel connected
to my parents through them so I pray other prayers more suited to my
beliefs. Do you think that is permissible?"
"I doubt God minds what prayers are said so long as He hears from
his cousin assured. "Do you come here often at night?"
"No. Only on rare occasion. I came looking for you
Owen said you had left the Phoenix and returned here. Upon
finding your chamber empty, this was my next guess. Psyche, I
have rethought our conversation earlier."
"You were right. About everything. It was a terrible
and I have... I have felt as you said I did." She bowed her head.
"That does not change the fact that you had good intentions and
could use a friend at his side tonight, I am sure. While I could
not approve of your going alone... I was reminded
of how often I needed such companionship myself and God sent me
Catherine. I cannot deny the same to His angel. If you will
allow me, I would like to go Above with you. I will leave you two
alone, merely watch over you until you must leave."
JenniAnn threw her arms around Vincent. "Thank you."
"You're most welcome. Come, let's go find our friend."
held his hand out to her. They each looked once more at the
stained glass window and left.
At JenniAnn's request, Vincent led
her first to the Phoenix. Of the Dyelanders, only Rose
remained and so JenniAnn went to her room. Careful not to
wake Josephine, she roused her friend who readily agreed to tag along.
Vincent led them through seldom trafficked alleys and side streets
until he came to the place he had last seen Andrew, the same place
Henry and Lin had described. JenniAnn
moved to go to the huddled figure sitting against the wall the moment
she saw him but Vincent held her back and indicated for Rose to
He took a moment to survey the alley, pausing to listen for any hint of
people nearby. He heard only cars, the meowing of stray cats, and
the wind. He nodded and watched as the women drew nearer to the
angel. Vincent tried his best to not focus on whatever would pass
Andrew was oblivious, staring at the police tape yards away and
remembering Maggie and what she had suffered there. He only
became aware of JenniAnn and Rose when they sat on either side of him.
"Laja," he greeted drowsily, remaining slumped against the brick.
"Rose." A second later he straightened up and glared at
them. "What are you doing out here? Do you have any idea
how... how dangerous..." His gaze traveled back to the dumpster
then alighted on the women once more. "You can't stay!"
"Shhh... Don't get yourself worked up. That's the last
thing you need, Andrew." Rose waved to where Vincent was
standing. "Vincent is here. He's more than capable of
"And he checked everything out. He doesn't think anyone's around
here right now cept us," JenniAnn added, unfurling a blanket and
tucking it around him.
Her words calmed Andrew. He waved to Vincent's shadowed form then
smiled gratefully as Rose produced a thermos from her bag.
"Here. It's potato soup." She deftly unscrewed
the lid, filled it, and handed it to the angel.
"Thanks. How did
you know where I was?"
"There was a woman. She tried to give you food earlier. Do
you remember?" JenniAnn asked.
Andrew nodded, wondering how she knew.
"That was Lin. A Helper. She was concerned so she and her
husband, Henry, followed you. They told me where they found you."
Andrew rested his head in hands. "Please tell Lin I'm sorry I
didn't recognize her. I was just..." His voice drifted off.
"She understands, I'm sure. Andrew, why aren't you at the
shelter?" Rose asked.
JenniAnn frowned. "You promised."
"I didn't think it applied any more," he responded bitterly, once again
looking at the crime scene tape.
JenniAnn opened her mouth to protest but was so shocked and hurt she
what to say.
Rose only shook her head.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean it to come out like that," he
apologized. "I know I promised you, too. Not only Maggie."
Waiving a response, JenniAnn began to roll up his sleeve.
Andrew raised an eye brow and studied his friend's face for any hint of
her intentions. "What exactly are you doing?"
"I was wondering the same myself," Rose added, equally unsure of what
her friend's behavior.
"This won't hurt." JenniAnn pinched Andrew gently then stared at
his arm. The skin she'd gripped remained elevated. "You're
dehydrated again. Andrew..."
The angel saw her eyes fill with tears. He sighed and
the prayer he had made at the Phoenix. Or, rather, the one he'd
cut off. He'd found himself again wishing that the love
his mortal friends bore for him might settle into a subdued, pleasant,
even slightly disinterested fondness. Something that would make
these cases and their involvement easier to tolerate.
"What are you thinking? I see such confusion in your eyes,"
JenniAnn mused sadly.
Andrew sighed and faced out into the alley. "What kind of
this for you?"
"The only one I know, Andrew," JenniAnn responded.
Rose nodded. "And the one we chose, Andrew."
The angel swiped at his eyes. "You spent Christmas worrying
being in Iraq. Then there
January. All of you were with me through everything as I tried to
comes to terms with Dawn's murder, Nadia's anger, Raquel's grief.
Laja, you're at odds with members of your family over me. Now
And that's just from the last year! You can't tell me your life
wasn't easier, more carefree before me."
"I didn't have a life before you!"
Rose was taken aback by JenniAnn's cry. While her friend
might feel that way, it struck Rose as a bit over-the-top and she knew
Andrew wasn't going to buy it.
Andrew chuckled in spite of the seriousness of the
He recognized hyperbole when he heard it. "Laja, you had
seventeen years worth of life before me."
She shook her head and slowly rotated her ring around her
"No... less than that."
"I don't think your crush on Andrew on the show really counts,"
"No. It doesn't," JenniAnn agreed. She turned towards
angel. "Andrew... There's something... something I never
The smile fell from Andrew's face. "What is it?" He
at Rose. "Do you
Rose shook her head, beginning to feel anxious. She hoped
whatever news flash JenniAnn was about to spill wouldn't distress
Andrew further. "I don't have a clue."
"It's not that I never intended to tell you. I thought about
as the first Christmas after you came to Dyeland. But at first it
seemed too... alarming." JenniAnn sighed.
Rose silently took Andrew's hand in her own, wincing at the
his skin through his threadbare gloves. She made a mental note to
leave hers before they departed. Any earlier and she knew he'd
JenniAnn soldiered on. "Then once I knew
long enough... by then I could tell how responsible you felt for us all
and for our well-being. Something you're doing a fine job of
exhibiting right now, by the way, with all that easy, carefree life
And I didn't want to make you feel even more responsible for me.
But maybe now...now you need to know."
"Then tell me."
"Should I maybe go wait with Vincent for a little bit?" Rose
hoping JenniAnn would say no. She had no desire to leave Andrew.
Shaking her head, JenniAnn drew in a deep breath. "No... I
need you to keep me from wussing out, Rose." She smiled at her
younger friend before drawing in another calming breath.
"Okay... It was
January 1987. I was four. My parents let me stay here with
Catherine for much of the month, so I could be with Vincent for
his birthday. One day Catherine took me shopping for his gift and
a new coat and whole winter ensemble for me. I felt like such a
big girl. We'd just finished lunch and were walking back to
Catherine's office so she could show me off. As we walked, a
police officer saw Catherine and waved her over. He said they'd
found something related to a case she was working on. But he must
not have seen me amidst the crowd. Assuming he had, Catherine
followed him with me holding her hand. She thought he only
intended to show her a bit of evidence that I'd find no significance
in. But to her dismay, he led her to a body. She was
livid. The cop felt awful. I remember being scooped up and
"I'm so sorry you had to see that. How awful for a small
child." Andrew moved to put his arm around her shoulders but
stopped. He was still soggy and covered with mud. An
encouraging look from Rose spurred him on.
JenniAnn squeezed his hand gently, nodded, and continued.
that didn't really hit me... at least not as terribly as it
might have. I was insulated from it
because... I'd seen someone else in the alley. Someone
beautiful and glowing and he looked so compassionately at the dead man."
Rose gasped, guessing where the story was headed.
"I was in love... well, puppy love or whatever. I tried to
Catherine and Vincent about him. About Cupid, as I called
him. I think they thought it was some sort of stress
reaction. That I'd pulled my favorite storybook character out and
inserted him into a traumatic event in my life to be able to cope."
Through the haze of discomfort and
fatigue, memories began to
in Andrew's mind. He knew
JenniAnn had received her Tunnel name because Vincent had spent many a
night putting her to bed as he read a picture book version of the myth
of "Cupid and Psyche." Some years later, Vincent had shown Andrew
book. The angel recalled the illustrations and being amused by
them. There was green-eyed Psyche with her flowy dresses and
tresses. She was clearly at least one of JenniAnn's role
models. And Cupid... Medium build, shoulder length
hair, olive eyes. A hand-drawn mirror image of
himself. JenniAnn had simply blushed and kept her own counsel
when Andrew had pointed out the likeness and jokingly
threatened to take up archery to further the resemblance.
"You saw me... when you were four?" he finally choked out.
Andrew ran his hand through his hair and grimaced when it got
"And I'm telling you this now because I need you to know... I've
thought exactly what you have. Earlier I found myself thinking
future and that it might be easier... to break away now. To not
be concerned about you any more, to not spend my life waiting for you,
growing old and less able to do anything to help you when I'm already
so limited. But then I remembered that four year old girl,
waiting for Cupid... you... to come back. She waited for thirteen
Andrew! What would she think if I
willingly walked away from you now? And would you... truly...
want me to? Want any of us to?" JenniAnn drew in a deep
breath and looked expectantly at the angel.
Andrew rested his head in his hands. "I... I don't know what
"Then I'll just give you some of my thoughts," Rose piped up.
The angel smiled at the younger of the two women.
"I think there's something in what JenniAnn shared that applies to
every last one of us that love you. She felt insulated from the
horror of that man's murder because she saw you. Without knowing
it, you protected a four year old child from something no child should
ever see. And you never stopped, Andrew. Yes, we were
worried when you were in Iraq. But it's not like before that we
hadn't felt touched by the war. We did. Just as we knew
before Dawn's death that sometimes women are killed
by the men they loved and that the grief that follows can be so
painful. And homeless people... they suffer so much and often are
ignored and cast aside." Rose's gaze traveled to the site of
death and she squeezed Andrew's hand when she noticed he was staring at
the dumpster, too. "We know and feel these things. Maybe
become less escapable for us when
involved, Andrew. But they were *never* fully escapable.
knowing you, seeing you with your assignments, noting how much you care
about them... enough that you're willing to sit out here in the cold,
exhausted, hungry, and dehydrated on the chance you might be able to
save one... Knowing and feeling that compassion and devotion is
part of our
too, Andrew. And whether we've known that for only a few years or
twenty three those aren't years we'd change." She relinquished
his hand and
moved in front of the
angel. "So to answer your question... Our lives
probably would be easier without you... in some ways. But they
wouldn't be better, Andrew. We love you. How could it
possibly be easier to be apart from someone you love than to be with
"It's not," Andrew admitted, relaxing and pulling the blanket more
tightly around himself. "I don't want any of you to
me. I love all of you, too."
"Good," JenniAnn beamed at him and squeezed his left hand then
his right one.
"It's healed," he told her. "I think... I think a lot about
is. Thank you both. And Vincent. I guess sometimes
even angels need some kind of revelation." He smiled at the
"I'm glad you realize that," Rose answered. "And I also hope
realize angels need more than that, too. Andrew, do you think you
come back to the Phoenix with us? Just for a little while?"
JenniAnn patted his arm where she'd pinched him. "You need a
"I know. How about if I promise to be there for
Right now I just need a little more time. Is that okay?"
"Breakfast it is," JenniAnn agreed.
"You bet. We'll be waiting for you with friends and freshly
muffins," Rose added. "9:00?"
Andrew grinned and nodded. "That sounds amazing... mostly
part about friends."
JenniAnn hugged him. "Take care until then."
"See you at 9:00, Amish Boy." Rose bestowed her own hug,
Andrew her gloves, and dashed after JenniAnn to rejoin Vincent.
"How is he?"
"Better now. He'll be at the Phoenix at 9:00." JenniAnn
realized she'd forgotten to grab her pocket watch.
"What time is
"2:00," Rose answered, checking her cell phone.
"Seven hours," JenniAnn murmured.
JenniAnn and Rose imagined how that breakfast would be as they
Vincent. They were shaken from their reverie when they heard
someone running after them.
"Chandler Jr.! Is that you?" a voice called.
"It's Joe!" JenniAnn cried. "Vincent, go! Rose, you
probly go with him."
"Do not take another step, young lady!" the district attorney
"I'll have him drop me off at the Phoenix. Go!" she repeated
before turning around and walking towards the angry man.
Joe became positive it was her. He waved her nearer.
knew that was you. Have you lost your mind,
JenniAnn? Follow me."
Meekly, JenniAnn followed him to two police vehicles, one marked
the other unmarked. He waved to the marked car. "Get
in. We're taking you to Cathy's shelter. I assume she's
there. You, her, and I are going to have a little talk. As
if we don't have enough to worry about without young women wandering
around at 2:00 in the morning! And who were those people with
you? Was one wearing a cloak?!?" He eyed her up and
down. "For that matter, why are you wearing one!?"
JenniAnn opened her mouth to answer but Joe shook his head.
"Just get in. We'll talk about it during the ride.
Without argument, JenniAnn ducked into the backseat.
"Hello, miss," the driver greeted.
JenniAnn looked into the rear view mirror, smiling at the winking
it revealed. "He is so ticked..."
"That's an understatement!"
They watched as Joe conferred with Bratton then stomped back to
the car and got in. "We're going to the Phoenix, Adam."
"Yes, sir." Adam glanced at JenniAnn in the rear view mirror
then turned onto the street.
"Now you're going to start answering questions. What were
doing out there?"
JenniAnn wasn't sure how to answer. "I... I..." She
Joe looked at her in surprise. "Andrew? You mean that
lawyer that worked in the office for a while? I could tell you
were hung up on him but what does he have to do with..." His face
darkened. "Did he hurt you? Because if he did and that's
why you were wandering around then so help me God I will personally..."
"No!" JenniAnn cried. "Adam!?"
Adam opened his mouth to help her out but Joe cut him off.
"Adam?" he looked at his supposed partner, incredulous. "You
each other? Would someone mind telling me what's going on
here?" He turned back to JenniAnn.
She sat silently, staring out the window.
"You're just like Cathy and, I'm sorry, but I don't have the heart
go through two generations of this. She's one of my best friends
and she doesn't trust me with anything. Clearly you
don't, either. No body trusts me with anything! That's
fine. That's just fine."
JenniAnn began to cry when she saw how greatly Joe was
hurting. "It's not that we don't trust you but
there's so much we... we just can't tell you."
"JenniAnn, it's time the truth came out. Starting with the
about me." Adam parked the car and turned to Joe. "Joe, I'm
not a detective."
Joe looked at Adam and the gun he was wearing. "Oh
Adam laughed gently. "I would never hurt JenniAnn. And
not going to hurt you. I wouldn't be much of an angel if I did,
"An... an angel?" Joe stared in disbelief. "I don't
He gaped in awe as Adam began to glow. "Okay, well, I may need
to re-evaluate my stance."
"I *am* an angel, ask JenniAnn if you need to."
"He really and truly is, Joe," JenniAnn verified.
"Obviously. So, angel... Adam... could you... could you tell
what's going on?"
"Joe, I would be happy to do that but first I think we need to get
the Phoenix. When we get there, we're all going to have a talk
about trust and the truth." He looked sharply at Joe. "All
of us. Now, please call your wife and ask her to meet us there."
Obedient, Joe did exactly that.
looked nervously out the
front window. Angie stood beside her and put a hand on her
"Relax, Cathy. Joe's bark
far worse than his bite.
JenniAnn's ears might be ringing when they show up but she'll be
fine... then she'll just have to sit through a lecture from me.
Honestly, what do you think she was doing out there?"
Catherine looked at Rose who
still somewhat of breath after racing back with Vincent to forewarn her.
"I think maybe we better wait
see what JenniAnn herself has to
say," the young woman responded, hoping the car ride had given her
enough time to come up with something.
"I suppose that's fair." Angie shrugged then shook her
head. "It just doesn't make sense to
She, like the rest of you, knows better than most what's going on out
"Maybe that's exactly why she went," Rose suggested.
Catherine turned back to the window. "I think I see
She turned to Angie, smiling with a trace of amusement. "I
have to say, I never thought I'd see my cousin dropped off in a squad
car." She peered out again. "Oh, look, it's Adam."
The three women waited nervously as JenniAnn, Joe, and Adam came
walkway. The angel motioned for the other two to enter
Joe immediately took a seat beside his wife, shaking his
Catherine sat at his other side. "Joe,
Joe grunted. "Oh, I'm just dandy. I've trying to get
homeless off the streets and here comes this one," he waved to
JenniAnn, "wandering through them like it's Sunday at the park!"
"I wasn't just idly wandering! I... I had to see
Andrew. He's out there Joe. And he befriended two of the
people killed and he was so distraught and... Rose and I just wanted
to..." She gulped then. "Oops."
"Great! So you were one of the others!" Joe looked to the
younger girl before turning back to Cathy.
"Chandler, what are you going to say about this?"
"I'm going to say... I'm proud of them." Catherine smiled at
two girls seated on the other couch.
Joe stared at her in horror. "That's ridic..."
"Please, let's all calm down," Adam suggested. "If for no
reason than Josephine finally lulled Cira to sleep. But more than
that, I think we all just need to listen to each other. Joe,
there's been something that's been eating you up ever since these
attacks began. And it's beyond the compassion and desire to serve
and protect that we all know you feel. This is personal, isn't
Joe wrapped his arms around his chest. "I don't need to
Angie rubbed his back. "Honey, you told me on the phone that
was an angel
so... I think you do."
Joe looked up at Adam who smiled encouragingly.
"Alright. See, I have a younger brother. He fought in the
Gulf War. He never was quite right after that."
JenniAnn shot a quick look at Rose only to discover she was
glancing at her, wondering.
"Started drinking when he came back. He lost
Wife, house, job... I... I tried to get him help. Put him
in rehab. He'd just leave. I had him move in with me for a
while. But he'd never stay put. I lost track of him
for years. Then one day, last year, I was driving home from the
grocery store. This homeless guy darts out in front of my
car! I slammed on the brakes. He just stood there, stunned,
as the car stopped only a few inches away. And I saw
then... My brother. I ran after him, begged him to let me
help him. At least tell me where he was staying so I could see
him. He wouldn't. He said I'd never understand. Then
he ran off." Joe laughed bitterly. "I don't know why I'm
surprised neither of you," he waved to Catherine and JenniAnn, "trust
me. My own brother won't." He swiped at the tears rolling
down his cheeks. "Is it the job? Is that why no one talks
to me? Lately... lately I've been thinking it is. That's
why I'm resigning as soon as we wrap this one. I'm done!"
Crying, Angie rested her forehead on Joe's shoulder.
Adam began to glow. "Joe, God is so pleased with all the
have done. You deserve a break, you deserve peace but...
The Father has work for you yet. There will come a time for you
to resign and to move onto a new phase in your life. But that
time isn't now."
Joe looked up at the angel, shaking his head. "So God wants
just put up with the distance this job has apparently put between me
and those I love?"
"Joe, God never wants His children to feel alienated from each
other. Now He wants to begin to heal those bonds you feel have
suffered because of your job." The angel's compassionate gaze
shifted to Catherine and he set his hand on her shoulder.
"Catherine, he needs
to know. He needs to know you trust him. It's time."
Nodding, Catherine looked at her cousin. "Psyche, please go
Vincent. He's in the basement."
Joe looked up in alarm. "Vincent?"
Catherine nodded and squeezed his hand. "My husband.
secret I felt I had to keep from you. Joe, he's not like other
men. He's... he's different. He looks different and he's
stronger than most. And in the
early days when so many of our cases put me in danger... Vincent did
what he had to do to protect me. And I wanted to tell you so
badly. But there was the job. I didn't want you to feel as
conflicted as I did. But I never realized how personally you took
"You're my friend, Chandler." Joe patted her arm. "I
wanted to lose you and if
this guy, your husband, kept that from happening then I don't care who
he is. I wouldn't put him in harm's way. I wouldn't betray
JenniAnn stepped back into the room. "He's waiting in the
Catherine left and quickly returned, holding Vincent's hand.
Angie and Joe looked up at the man with alarm but neither screamed
looked away in terror.
"Hello," Vincent greeted. "I am very pleased to finally be
meeting you both. Catherine has told me so often of your kindness
and friendship." Uncertain, he held out his hand.
Staring for a moment, Joe took Vincent's hand and shook it.
"Great to meet you. You, uh, you have a swell wife." The
man blushed, realizing how inane he sounded.
Vincent chuckled. "Thank you, I agree."
Angie reached for his hand next. "You're extraordinary..."
"That he is," Catherine agreed, hugging Vincent.
"Hey, wait..." Joe waved to Vincent's ensemble. "The
cape. You were the third person with JenniAnn and Rose."
Vincent nodded, settling into the love seat with Catherine.
I kept watch over them. I would have protected them if necessary."
"So you weren't really being stupid?" the D.A. asked, looking to
JenniAnn and Rose.
"I won't lie. I had some pretty foolish plots going
But, no, in the end Vincent kept me from that. Rose and I were
only there because we knew he could protect us. We wouldn't have
gone otherwise. And, please know, it's not that I didn't want to
tell you but Vincent's secret wasn't mine to reveal and I wasn't
sure... I wasn't sure what you could be told about Andrew," JenniAnn
"So what is the story with Andrew? I know it's been a while
he had that stint in my office but he seemed to have it
all together. How did he end up on the streets?" Joe questioned.
"Andrew's like me," Adam answered. "He's an angel,
while God sent me to you, He sent Andrew to Ryan and Maggie and other
people who needed to hear that even as society seemed to have abandoned
them, even as they were being targeted by people with hatred in their
hearts... God loves them. And Andrew and other angels have been
with each and every person who has suffered since this began.
They've taken them Home to Heaven, Joe."
"Whoa... wait... So Andrew's an, uh..."
"An angel of death?" Angie finished for her husband.
Adam nodded. "And so am I."
"B-but you just said you were assigned t-to..." Joe looked
the angel, nervous.
"Oh no..." Angie moaned.
"Angels of death aren't always sent to the person who will die,"
assured. "Sometimes we're sent to help others cope with death and
the issues it can bring up. And God knew that these attacks
would make you think of your brother. He knew you shouldn't be
alone with that so he sent me to be with you as you went from crime
scene to crime scene, worried each time that it would be your baby
brother." The angel looked to Joe with utmost compassion.
"When these attacks started up, I was horrified by what was being
done. But I was also scared. What if they came after Jerry
next?" Joe cried.
"J-jerry?" Rose stuttered.
"My brother, yeah. Why?"
JenniAnn drew in a deep breath. "Monday night a friend
Rose and I needed a break. We went out for dessert and as we were
walking to the car to come back, we saw these kids gathered around a
They weren't hurting him. Just being nasty. Rose and I...
we thought it might be Andrew. But it wasn't. He... he said
his name was Jerry and he seemed to know Andrew. He said
something about Iraqis."
Joe leapt up from the couch. "Where was he? Where did
"We were concerned so we drove him to New Life," Rose answered.
Joe began to sob and Angie pulled him back to the couch.
"He's alive," Joe murmured. "There's still a chance!"
As Joe processed the news, the group sat quietly, pondering how
connected they had all been even
at the times they felt apart.
Mick and Billings were patrolling
the streets when Mick came to a dead stop.
"What is it?" the police officer asked.
Mick waited. Yes, he'd definitely picked up on the scent he'd
first noticed the night before, near Maggie's body. He spun
around, searching for another person but the block seemed to be
silent. A moment later, he heard footsteps. Four
sets. No... five. Then faint voices. Voices he knew
Billings would have no hope of hearing. Foul, hateful
language. But amidst the barrage of insults, Mick could piece
together a narrative. One man was angry at the other. He
thought he'd gone too far killing Maggie. No one cared about a
few drugged up homeless men being taken out, he said. But a
woman. A young woman at that. One with a beautiful high
school photo dredged up from some sweet, little Midwest town.
That got people to watch out. Then he'd gone and left
evidence. She'd cut him as they struggled. Idiot hadn't
bothered to pick up the scissors. True, his DNA wasn't in the
system. But their no-good cousin's was. They could trace by
family now. He'd seen it on Law and Order. Now
they'd just have to go back. Do some clean-up if the cops hadn't
already nabbed it up.
Mick guessed them to be several yards ahead. A good distance but
not enough to start up the cruiser without them noticing and scattering.
"Billings," Mick whispered. "I think they're a ways ahead
us. Something tells me they're headed back to the scene of the
"You kidding me?" Billings scoffed. "These guys have had us
running around for over a week and they're going to do something that
"Maybe they've realized no one grabbed the scissors. They're
hoping we missed it and they can get it."
The officer shook his head and shrugged. "I think you're nuts but
we're not accomplishing anything here. Let's go."
"On foot. They're really close and if they hear the car, we'll
lose them. Get to the alley as soon as you
"Aren't you coming?"
"Yeah, just go. I'll be right there," Mick assured, knowing he
couldn't allow Billings to see him run at inhuman speeds. "I'm
just going to call for back up."
As Billings set off, Mick called Bratton and directed him to get word
out. Then he set off in the direction the gang of men were
headed, hoping he'd beat them there. He had a sick feeling in his
stomach. He knew sometimes Andrew returned to the places his
assignments had lost their lives... what if he had that night?
Andrew knelt by where Maggie had
died and prayed.
"Dear Father, I want You to know I'm sorry that for a moment I
second-guessed You. You have given me such amazing, wonderful
gifts in my friends and it was wrong of me to want to change those
friendships. I don't. But that doesn't... that doesn't mean
this isn't very, very hard." Tears pooled in the angel's
eyes. "I know You've said I can go Home. Or I can go back
to them. And I want to, Father. I do. I don't want
them to worry any more. I don't want them to be sad. And
I... I miss them. And I miss Maggie and Ryan. I want to see
them. I want to see Your face but..." Andrew rubbed at his
eyes. "There are still people out there who will continue to
hurt, even kill, Your children. The children You sent me
to. Children like Crystal. I can't bear the idea of walking
away from this assignment, leaving her and knowing that others can't
Peering to the heavens, Andrew stood. "If there's any way I can
help to end this: use me."
Joe and Angie were preparing to
leave, not wanting to waste a moment before heading to New Life, when
Joe's cell phone rang.
"This is Joe. What?? Where??? Okay! Adam's
here. We'll head that way right now!" The district attorney
beamed at Adam. "That P.I. called Bratton and told him he and
Billings are tracking our perps!" He turned to his wife.
"Honey, I'll be back as soon as I can. I just have to see this
"Where are they headed?" Adam asked.
"That's the crazy thing. Right back to the scene of the last
attack. Matthew was right. They do screw..." He
drifted off then and turned to Rose and JenniAnn. He recalled
he'd spotted them, on their mercy mission to Andrew, not far from
there. He noticed the color had drained from both their
Vincent nodded. "Andrew's there. Go."
Adam hugged both girls then ran out of the house and into the squad car
Vincent embraced his wife then pulled up his hood. "I'm going, as
well. Please, promise me you'll all stay here?"
"Of course, Vincent," Catherine vowed, bringing his hand to her lips
briefly. After he nodded and left, she took a seat between
Rose and JenniAnn and hugged them both.
JenniAnn pulled away and walked to the window. "'Though a host
encamp against me, my heart will not fear; though war arise against me,
in spite of this I shall be confident...'"
Josephine came down the stairs. "What's going on? I
saw Adam and the district attorney run out of here." She noticed
her niece crying into Catherine's shoulder. "Rose, what's wrong,
"W-we need to call Yva, Lady Beth, and the others," she responded, only
causing her aunt more confusion. She left the room to do
that. JenniAnn shook herself out of her haze and followed her.
"I-it's Andrew, isn't it? What's happened?"
"Maybe nothing," Catherine explained. "But we know the killers
are headed towards where he is."
Angie looked to Catherine, horror-stricken. "But he's an
angel! What could possibly happen?"
"He's an angel in human form," Catherine clarified. "And I... I
Andrew was packing up the last of
the mementos the group had gathered and hid. He hoped, one
day soon, he'd be able to give them to Crystal as a remembrance of her
friends. There was a small, metal Statue of Liberty that had
belonged to Ryan. A weathered volume of poems and stories from
had occasionally read to Crystal to calm her when she became
frightened. To this Andrew had added a
bookmark he'd fashioned from a stray piece of leather they'd found one
day. He'd given it to Maggie and she'd thanked him as if he'd
given her the keys to the city. Last was a limp rag doll.
Crystal's. In a moment of clarity, she had told him her mother
had made it for her and though she had walked away from everything, she
couldn't leave the doll. Its presence there saddened the
angel. He worried that she hadn't returned for it.
Stuffing the doll into his interior coat pocket along with the other
items, Andrew stood up. He gazed around the alley one final time,
remembering the few but precious nights spent there with Ryan, Maggie,
and Crystal. Smiling sadly, he turned to leave and head towards
Andrew had only walked a few yards when he heard voices. Harsh
"Well, gentlemen, it looks like we're not destined for an off-night
The angel turned towards the speaker and found himself eye to eye with
a group of... boys. They weren't even men. Teenagers.
One or two may have been nineteen but no older. Each one of them
stared at him with disgust and hate. Andrew knew at once that
they were responsible for the deadly attacks. He felt anger
rising up inside of him but along with it great sadness and grief for
lost promise of five young lives.
"What do you think you're doing staring at us like that?" a second
boy demanded, stepping closer.
"I was feeling sorry for you. I can't imagine what it must feel
like to be so consumed by hate," Andrew responded calmly. "This
isn't what God wanted for you."
The boy at the back pushed through his friends and stood nearly nose to
nose with the angel.
Andrew didn't flinch despite the boy being considerably bulkier than
Enraged, the boy shoved him.
Andrew winced as he slammed again the hard brick of the wall.
The boy looked around the alley and seized upon a metal pipe.
"You don't have any right to be looking down on us. Trash.
Andrew stood up and stepped nearer the group, his defiant
gaze taking each of them in. "And what right do you have to take
lives? What right do you have to stand in judgment of
others? Every person you have killed belonged to God, was loved
Irate, the boy swung at Andrew as his friends clustered around.
The angel moved to catch the pipe. He cried out to his Father
instead of stopping in his hand, the pipe made hard contact with his
lower arm. Dizzy with pain, Andrew fell to his knees. He
up to see the boy had again raised the pipe. Shutting his eyes,
he waited for the next blow. He didn't feel fear, only concern
for his friends and pity for his attacker. "Father, forgive
them," he whispered as the boys shouted encouragement to their friend.
"Do it, man! Just hurry up!"
"Yeah, finish it!"
The boy with the pipe stepped forward, gripping the pipe more tightly.
"Turn around with your hands in the air!" a familiar voice
shouted. "Now! Turn around and drop the weapon or I'll
Blinking, Andrew saw Mick approach with his gun raised.
The assailant turned and let the pipe clatter to the ground.
"Up against that wall. Every one of you," Mick shouted.
One boy darted into a side alley but wasn't gone for long when he
reappeared, Billings and Bratton each with a grip on one of his
"What did the man say? Against the wall," Bratton demanded.
Andrew watched the scene feeling incredibly relieved yet somehow
detached. It was
over. They wouldn't hurt anyone again. He heard the screech
of tires and saw Joe and Adam step out and dash towards them.
They were soon joined by another squad car.
Adam knelt beside Andrew. "Buddy, you okay?"
"Yeah. I think they may have fractured something in my arm
The elder angel set a hand on his friend's shoulder. "We'll get
you fixed up. It might require something a little more extensive
than Catherine's first aid kit and Nurse JenniAnn but..." Adam
frowned. He pulled his hand away from Andrew. He stared at
it. Blood. "A-andrew, what else happened?"
"I hit the wall. I don't think it was that hard," he
shrugged. He looked at Adam curiously and blinked. "I think
I need my glasses.
Adam grabbed Andrew by the shoulders before his head hit the
ground. "Call a bus!" he shouted. "He's lost consciousness!"
In the shadows, a newly arrived Vincent heard and ran back towards the
JenniAnn, Owen, Angie, and
Catherine were sitting on the porch. JenniAnn was staring
up at the stars
and occasionally gripping Owen's hand for comfort. Rose and her
great aunt were sitting in the living room, a Bible resting between
them. Josephine read quietly to her niece. Willy, Yva, and
Sir Sven sat on the couch across from them; each lost in their thoughts
about or prayers for Andrew. Lulu and Fawn were curled up on
Andrew's former bed. Henry, Lady Beth, and Nigel waited in the
kitchen; occasionally offering food and drink to their anxious friends
while feeling equally anxious themselves. Cira had woken up
shortly after Adam and Joe had fled. She walked from room to
room, wondering what she could say to comfort the people who had been
so gracious and kind to her. Finally, she thought of
something. She crept up to her room and returned holding a candle.
Everyone in the living room watched as she carefully set it in the
Yva smiled. "It's beautiful, Cira."
"When I was little my mother would put a candle in the window.
She said it was to guide those who were lost home. I... I think
she wanted it to bring my father home. It didn't but... maybe
it'll bring Andrew back?" she offered.
"I hope so," Yva responded. "Thank you."
The group jolted when they heard a thud in the basement.
"Catherine?" Willy called. "I think something's fallen in the
basement. Would you like me to go check?" Well he knew that
the noise had been the work of Vincent but he was equally aware that
Cira didn't yet know
about Catherine's husband.
"No, thank you. I'll look into it." She smiled
appreciatively then made her way quickly through the living room,
kitchen, down the stairs, through her office, and into their
bedroom. Entering, she saw Vincent with his hands resting on the
dresser and his head bowed.
"V-vincent? What is it? Is Joe..."
"Joe is fine. He's helping bring the killers in as we speak
but... You need to take the girls to the hospital. St.
Vincent's was the nearest. They would have headed there."
"Why? What's happened?"
"I'm not certain but Andrew lost consciousness and they called an
"Oh God..." Catherine whispered.
"He's with him. But his friends should be, too. Go,
Numb, Catherine nodded and bolted back up the stairs. When she
reappeared, everyone was crammed into the living room.
"W-we need to get to St. Vincent's. Andrew's being admitted."
Gasps and cries arose from the group.
"What happened?" Lady Beth questioned, clutching Henry's hand.
"I... I don't know. But I know we need to get there. Angie,
could you drive a few people?" Catherine asked as she dug her own keys
out of her purse.
"Thank you. I can get 4 others in my car." Catherine began
"Everyone else will fit in the van. I'll drive. Rose, do
you still have the
keys?" Henry asked.
Shaking, Rose handed them over. "But the van is..."
"It's in the garage," he interrupted. "There will be room for
everyone. Now let's get going."
The group scrambled to lock the doors and check on the dogs.
A moment before rushing out, Cira prayed and blew out the candle.
Adam sat in the waiting room,
staring at a magazine. It was several minutes before he finally
read a word and discovered he was looking at an article about finding
the perfect little black dress. He shoved it back onto the end
table and rested his head in his hands. Joe held some coffee out
"Drink. It's actually decent," the man encouraged.
Adam did as he was told then absently stared into the coffee.
Joe took a seat next to the angel. "He's going to be okay, right?"
"He'll live. It's a perk of being what we are," Adam
"It doesn't mean we can't get hurt and stay hurt for a while.
Head trauma can... I mean his sight, movement, cognitive
skills..." The angel of
death shook his head and
banished the thought. There was nothing to be gained by imagining
Joe blinked and slunk against the cushions. "Damn." He
noticed Adam's hands were folded and his head bowed. He commenced
his own prayer.
After a few moments, the two men heard a stampede of hurried foot
steps. Soon they were both mobbed as the party from the Phoenix
Inn entered the room, embracing them and throwing out questions.
"What exactly happened?"
"Where did they take Andrew?"
"Has the doctor come out?"
"Are *you* okay?"
Adam and Joe indicated for everyone to find seats before they began to
answer their friends. Once this was done, Adam perched on a chair
towards the entrance so he could face everyone. He decided to
tell them the answers as quickly as possible to get it over with.
"No doctor yet. He's in the ER. We're fine. We don't
know exactly what happened. Mick arrived first and he saw someone
strike Andrew's arm with a... a... pipe." He grimaced as the
dismay and hurt of the group filled the room. "When I got
there... h-he seemed dizzy. I asked him what had happened and he
said he'd hit a wall and then I touched his shoulder..." Adam's
voice faltered and tears filled his eyes. Yva moved next to him
and hugged him.
Joe drew a deep breath and took over. "It became obvious Andrew
had hit his head and there was a cut which was bleeding. Now, you
have to know that we didn't get a close look. It may have been
"What did Andrew say when you noticed?" Willy pressed.
Joe and Adam exchanged a look. Catherine bowed her head,
remembering what Vincent had said.
"Adam," JenniAnn knelt before him and took his hand, "please tell us."
The angel nodded. He glanced heavenward, praying for strength and
the right words. Words that were truthful yet wouldn't panic his
friends. "Andrew started to say that everything was
blurry." The scene replayed in his mind. "Then I grabbed
him because he fainted."
The room was silent for several moments. They didn't notice when
a nurse entered the room.
"I'm looking for Andrew's family," she called.
They all jolted. She smiled at them. "The doctor would like
to speak to Andrew's family so if whichever of you that is would please
follow me..." She looked curiously at the group as they all
exchanged uncertain glances.
Joe finally stood up. "They're all his family."
The nurse looked surprised but recovered her calm, serene countenance
quickly. "Perhaps if a representative or two..."
The district attorney shook his head. "We'd all like to go.
Please. It's important." Feeling slightly guilty about it,
he flashed his badge.
"Alright then, follow me, please."
The group followed the nurse, bracing themselves and praying.
For a moment the room seemed very
still and quiet. Only a soft beeping could be heard. But
then Andrew zeroed in on an odd, scratching sort of noise that soon
stopped. His eyelids felt terribly heavy so he kept
them closed, relying on his other senses to reveal where he was and who
was with him.
"'Dearest and loveliest of all Andrews'" a male voice read.
"Sweet. Obsessive but sweet, the essence of our
"Adam said I could! So did Dr. Steffens."
An unknown, feminine laugh followed. "That I did. So I
guess that little inscription there is under doctor's orders."
"Can I write something?"
"Sure. But then it's my turn."
A sigh. "He looks so peaceful. Do you think he's
dreaming?" Someone brushed some hair from his forehead.
Rose's voice. Maybe her touch, too?
"Pardon me, but aren't you a little concerned Andrew might awaken and
alarmed to find all of us here?"
Andrew blinked then forced his eyes wide open and stared... in
warning hadn't quite prepared him for... he paused to count.
Willy, Nigel, Yva, Sir Sven, Catherine, Angie, Joe, Lady Beth, Rose,
Josephine, Henry, JenniAnn, Owen, Cira, Adam, and a doctor.
Sixteen faces looked down at him expectantly.
"Hi," he rasped, wincing at the bright light above them.
"Do you feel like you can you sit up? Just don't try to put
weight on your right arm. It's in a cast. Try to drink some
Andrew looked up at the doctor who was holding an orange juice
recognized her. She'd been working on Ryan. She was the one
he'd followed into the hall. The angel smiled at her and nodded
then accepted the drink.
"How are you feeling, Andrew?" Yva looked down at him with the
same deep concern that was writ across all their faces.
Andrew took another sip of his juice, awkwardly holding it in his left
hand, then beamed at them. "Better than I have been." A
number of them still looked gravely concerned and Andrew wished he
could do something to dispel it. He
raised an eye brow in contemplation.
"What is it, buddy?" Adam asked.
"I was just trying to remember something."
"Y-you can't recall something?" JenniAnn peered at him,
misty-eyed, then turned to the physician. "Do you think his
memory suffered any d..."
"No! Laja, no. Well, now my joke just plain isn't gonna be
funny," Andrew lamented. "I'm sorry I scared you."
"Joke?" she looked at him curiously.
"Well, yeah. See, I remember telling Yva that I thought it was
alright that you, she, and Rose took turns sitting at my bedside at
Catherine's. I just can't remember telling you I thought it'd be
a good spectator sport. There are sixteen of you in here!
That's a sports team!" he
exclaimed before laughing. "But I wouldn't want a single one of
you not to be."
Dr. Steffens smiled. "We have policies against this but when the
district attorney makes a demand..." She looked slyly at Joe.
"Yeah, well, I didn't want to be stuck as a bouncer," he jested then
grew serious. "Andrew, I can't tell you how glad I am to see you
and to know..."
Andrew sighed, closing his eyes again for just a moment. "It's
"Yeah." Joe squeezed his shoulder.
"So what exactly... I don't remember how I got here." He smiled
reassuringly at JenniAnn. "Believe me, that's the only part I
Dr. Steffens grabbed his chart. "You, sir, were extremely
dehydrated and malnourished upon arrival. We believe that
accounts for your fainting spell. Detective Addams was concerned
was the result of your head wound. However, that was merely
superficial and required only a couple stitches. Your arm
however... It was broken and so you'll probably need to wear that
for at least six weeks. Maybe some physical therapy
afterwards. But I'm just glad... I'm glad there
wasn't more. You're very lucky the police arrived when they
did." The doctor patted Andrew's shoulder. "Normally we'd
want to keep you in the hospital a little longer but I promised your
friends here that I'd release you to them for the holiday as long as
you promise to stay with them, eat, rest, drink plenty of fluids, be
careful with your arm. Is that a deal?"
Andrew surveyed his friends' expectant, hopeful faces and nodded.
"It's a deal. I have no intention of leaving them any time soon
if I have any say in the matter."
"Good. I'll let all of you say your good byes in private but then
I'd like Andrew to rest, alright?"
Andrew nodded. "Yes. Thank you, Dr. Steffens. For
The doctor found herself blinking back tears of relief. The
sadness she had borne for days had been lifted away from her as Andrew
her. She quickly exited the room.
"Alright. We have a lot to get done. It's the first
Thanksgiving at the Phoenix Inn and if the head count in this room is
representative... we have a lot of cooking to do!" Catherine
smiled at the amassed group then peered down at Andrew. "We were
hoping you might spend some time there recuperating. The police
have some questions and then there's the trial and maybe it would be
easier to have you around
"If there's somewhere else you'd rather be, believe me, Adam and I can
fend everyone off long enough for you to rest," Joe insisted.
Andrew looked appreciatively at the D.A. "All of you are coming
to Thanksgiving dinner there?"
Fifteen heads nodded in unison.
Andrew laughed. "Then I can't imagine anywhere else I'd rather
be. Catherine, thank you. I'd love to stay."
A collective sigh swept through the room.
"So your assign..." Rose remembered Cira then and stopped. "So
you won't be staying on the streets any more?"
Andrew frowned. "No. I know that's not where I'm supposed
to be any more. I just wish I could have found Crystal."
"We can help you," Cira offered. "Just because you have a home
now doesn't mean she wouldn't still listen to you if we found
her. Once you've had a few days to rest, I'd be happy to help you
"You know we all would, buddy," Henry added.
Andrew smiled wearily but gratefully. "I do."
"Good. Now try to get some sleep." JenniAnn gently brushed
her fingers against his poking out from the cast.
"We'll check back in a while, dear," Josephine promised.
Yva nodded. "Hopefully you can leave tonight. Oh and...
here." She produced his teddy bear from her bag and set it beside
Andrew patted the bear on the head then squeezed Yva's hand.
After myriad hugs and well wishes, Andrew's friends left him to his
rest. But there was one more person the angel needed to speak to.
"Father," he whispered, "thank you. For letting me see this
out. I am so glad that those boys... boys," he repeated, still
incredulous, "won't be able to hurt anyone else. And for those
who have been hurt by them, either directly or indirectly, please help
us all begin to heal. And, wherever Crystal is, please help her
to know she's loved. And missed. Amen."
As a feeling of peace washed over him, Andrew drifted back into much
True to her word, Dr. Steffens
released Andrew early that evening. When he arrived at the
Mick was waiting. Since it was the vampire's first chance to see
others dispersed to various areas of the house while the two visited in
the living room.
The angel of death didn't waste a moment before hugging his former
assignment-turned-friend. "I was worried you'd left. I
wanted to thank you."
The vampire shook his head, his curls flying. "No way. I
had to see you first. Hospitals just aren't a great place for
me. But I can't stay long. Beth has to work tomorrow so
we're celebrating Thanksgiving tonight. I have turkey duty."
Chuckling, Andrew shook his head. "You're a good man to cook a
turkey you can't eat."
"Takes one to know one."
Andrew blushed. "Thanks, Mick."
"So how are you feeling? The dizziness let up? Any more
"Your inner medic is showing," the angel jested. "I'm feeling
good. Not dizzy, still just a little bit near-sighted but that's
nothing new! Only this is." He pointed to his
right arm which was tucked into a sling.
"I wish I could have gotten there in time to stop them from doing that
but then again..."
"Mick, you did more than enough. But 'then again...' what?"
Mick shrugged. "Part of me is glad. Not that *they* broke
it, of course. But I think you needed something like that to
happen before you'd be willing to take it easy and be with your
"I'm afraid so," Andrew admitted. He traced the writing on his
cast, a slight smile forming. "Thanks for being one of them."
"Any time. But now I better be heading back. You take care
of yourself. And you let them take care of you, too. It'd
be as much for their sake as yours."
"Good. I need to get going before the girls toss me out for
monopolizing their, ahem, dearest and loveliest," Mick teased, reading
Andrew's cast. "Happy Thanksgiving! I'm glad you'll be
spending it here." Mick hugged the angel.
"Thanks, and happy Thanksgiving to you, too. And Beth.
Josef and Logan, too.
"When this thing comes off," he carefully elevated his right arm an
inch or two, "you'll get that rematch at pool."
Laughing, Mick nodded. "You got yourself a game, my friend.
"Good night." Andrew smiled at Mick as he left.
A moment later, JenniAnn came down the stairs and plopped down beside
He smiled affectionately at her. "Laja,
what can I do for you?"
She bit her lip. "I don't really know. Just... be."
She cringed. "That was really, really..."
Andrew smiled and hugged her.
"Sweet and obsessive," Owen called. "Remember there's no door
here in the kitchen, Psyche." He strolled into the living room,
grinning. "I'm just teasing you although, yeah, sweet and
obsessive it was. But I concur. Let's all just be.
It'll be very zen." He took a spot on the floor and assumed the
Andrew doubled over with laughter as JenniAnn launched a throw pillow
at her friend.
"Children, do either of you need a time out?" Catherine walked in
with Jacob balanced on her hip, smiling and shaking her head.
"Did I just hear one of my favorite noises ever?" Rose asked as she and
Josephine emerged from their room.
"What noise is that?" Andrew asked as more of his friends filed into
"Good gravy! It's contagious! Sappiness is infecting one
Yva laughed at Owen's mock hysteria. "I'm afraid so. Be
careful, Owen, you might catch it. But I really do think JenniAnn
was onto something. After everything that's happened, I think we
all just need to be together for a bit."
"Movie night?" Henry suggested.
"Can we make it comedies?" Lady Beth added.
"Yes!" everyone cried in unison, more than ready to put drama and crime
While Yva and Nigel selected movies, JenniAnn went Below to retrieve
Shelby who had been patient enough in waiting to see Andrew.
After fixing up some food, they all crowded into the living room for a
blissful hours of simply relaxing, laughing, and enjoying being
Though everyone was reluctant to be
parted from Andrew, they realized
he was still worn down. After their movies ended, they left him
on his own in his room with orders to let them know if he needed
anything at all. Fawn and Lulu, however, refused to leave his
Andrew laughed as they romped
around. They seemed to understand
he wasn't up to his usual games with them and so contented themselves
with running after the plush ball the angel threw from the bed,
retrieving it, and waiting for him to throw it again. Andrew was
relieved that it was plush and not something harder. His
left-handed pitches continuously went astray but neither dog minded.
They'd been at the game for about ten minutes when someone knocked on
"Come in," Andrew called. He was surprised when Cira poked her
"I know we're supposed to let you rest but it didn't exactly sound like
Smiling, Andrew motioned for her to enter. "I wasn't. At
least not entirely. Can I help you with anything?"
Cira took a seat in the chair beside his bed. "I don't really
need help just... can I ask you something?"
"Are you... human?"
Andrew looked at the girl in surprise. "That's a question you
don't hear every day."
As if sensing the seriousness of the coming discussion, Lulu and Fawn
plopped on the foot of the bed and sat quietly.
Cira smiled sheepishly. "I know it's strange but... I don't
know. The moment I saw you, when you were helping Ryan and got
your hand cut, there was just something about you... That's why I
didn't worry about bringing you here. And why I was so shocked
when you, well, lunged at JenniAnn. And then once Catherine sort
of explained that... I went back to what I'd originally thought: there
was just something about you. Something beyond human."
Cira's face fell. "And then... then the day we found out about
Maggie... everyone was so devastated. Even though Catherine had
switched my room, I... I just couldn't bring myself to go into
it. I sat in the hall for a while and that's when I heard..."
Andrew reached for Cira's hand. "What did you hear?"
"I could hear JenniAnn and Rose. They were in JenniAnn's room and
the door was closed but it must not be very thick and I didn't mean to
eavesdrop but... JenniAnn said something about needing to see
you. But that someone named Vincent had convinced her not to
go. Rose was sympathetic and that's when she said something like
it being assuring to know angels can't get killed or anything but that
she wished there were also guarantees their hearts couldn't get
broken. At first I thought maybe she was just being
affectionate. Because I could tell how much they love you.
But she was being literal, wasn't she? You are an angel, aren't
"I am," Andrew responded.
"W-were you with Maggie when she died?"
The angel nodded, tears forming in his eyes.
"I wish she hadn't. I didn't know her very well but when
here we talked for a long time and she seemed like a great
person. And one that really cared about you. And I just...
I feel better knowing you were with her, Andrew. That she got to
see you before she died. I know what it was I felt when I first
saw you: love. God's love, your love. And I can feel it
now, coming from you. I can imagine how much peace Maggie felt,
being there with you and wrapped up in that love."
Andrew moved to get up and hug the girl but she guessed his intent and
moved herself into his embrace. "Thank you. That means so
much to me to hear you say that."
"And it means so much to me to know an angel would come down here and
live this life just to help us." Cira pulled away and smiled at
the angel. "Thank you." She sighed, wiping at her
tears. "I better get back out there. I promised Lady Beth
I'd teach her some authentic Mexican recipes. And you do need to
rest. But I'll see you tomorrow."
"Tomorrow. Have a good night, Cira."
"You, too, Andrew. Sleep well."
Settling into bed, Andrew knew he would.
It was nearly noon when the Phoenix
Inn's first Thanksgiving dinner was being laid out on the dining room
table. The early time had been chosen so Catherine and Jacob
could join Vincent Below for the Tunnel Thanksgiving celebration that
evening and others could be with their families. However, Lady
Beth joked that it had been chosen to
accommodate the men's need to watch football.
"I thought Joe and Angie were coming?" JenniAnn questioned as she sat a
basket of rolls on the table.
"They're a bit delayed," Catherine answered. "They said to start
without them but I
thought we'd give them about fifteen."
"Why does this turkey look slightly... different?" Owen asked as he set
it down in front of the seat Adam would be occupying.
Following him with a bowl of stuffing, the angel of death simply
shrugged. "Does it? I hadn't noticed. I'm sure it
"Everything's going to taste great!" Lady Beth insisted with
confidence. "We all did a great job."
Rose stepped in from the living room. "Catherine, Joe and
Angie are here. And Jerry."
Catherine smiled then sprinted to the door to greet them.
Rising from the couch, Andrew stood and followed Catherine.
"Jerry, this is Cathy," Joe introduced. "She used to work with me
but I guess she got sick of me and started this shelter to get away."
Catherine laughed and swatted at her old boss. "You're
terrible." She directed her attention to his brother.
"Welcome, Jerry. We're so pleased you could join us.
Jerry pulled his gaze away from Andrew and smiled at Catherine.
"Thank you, ma'am... Cathy."
Andrew moved closer. "Jerry," he greeted, holding out his left
Shaking it, the man stared at his other arm in its sling.
Something about it pierced the shell he'd built in the years since the
war and tears stung his eyes. "A-andrew." He patted his
Andrew hugged him. "Jerry, I'm very glad to see
you again, especially here. With your brother."
Jerry looked proudly at Joe. "I'm glad to be here with him."
The two brothers hugged as the group made their way into the dining
Catherine smiled at all the familiar faces: Cira, Josephine, Rose,
JenniAnn, Owen, Nigel, Willy, Yva, Sir Sven, Joe, Angie, Jerry, Lady
Beth, Henry, Adam, Andrew, and Jacob perched on her lap. Though
she wished Vincent could be there, she was warmed by the sight of them
all gathered together, safely. "Adam, would you like to lead
grace?" she asked.
"Sure," Adam agreed. He bowed his head and the others followed
suit. "Father, on this day when so many gather to give thanks, we
want to thank you for all the blessings in our life: food, shelter,
good health, our safety, and, above all, the love we have for each
other. Though we know it binds us even when we're apart, we are
so grateful that today You've allowed us to be together. Thank
"Amen," the others echoed.
As the dishes were passed around, Andrew looked on with immense
appreciation. Even though his broken arm caused
consternation as he tried to eat with some semblance of gracefulness,
he couldn't help but find amusement in the way the ladies vied for the
chance to help him. He found himself wondering, too, if Mick
hadn't been right about his arm. Though the Father had told him
after Maggie's death that he could take some time for himself, Andrew
had insisted upon continuing in his pursuit of Crystal. But he
recognized then that he had needed the time with his friends and that,
quite possibly, being under doctor's orders was the only way he would
have agreed to it.
"You look enigmatic, Andrew," Yva mused as she helped dish out mashed
potatoes for him. "What is it?"
Andrew smiled. "I was just thinking about how glad I am to be
here with all of you. This just might rank as my favorite
"Better than the one with the pilgrims?" Cira asked with a glint in her
eyes. She remembered Jerry's presence then. "Eeek...
Jerry looked at her and winked. "I know, kid. It's
something else, isn't it?" He lifted his glass. "To
angels. Better yet, let's make it just to friends, whatever you
"Hear, hear!" Joe added.
The sound of glasses clinking filled the air and was soon followed by
"Pass the ball! Pass the
ball!" Joe shouted.
"They can't hear you," Jerry teased as his older brother mimed
Angie peeked out from the kitchen and smiled. "It's so great to
see them like that."
"It really is and I'm glad... I'm glad everything's out in the open
Angie hugged Catherine. "Me too. And here I was going to
try to set you up!" She looked back into the
living room and laughed. "I guess male bonding via Thanksgiving
Day football viewing isn't confined to our species. Of course,
some of the girls seem to be enjoying it, too."
"*Some* of them," Yva stressed, walking past them with a stack of board
games she was carrying into the rec room for the less
sports-enthusiastic members of their group. "Lady Beth and Cira
appear to be genuinely enjoying the game. Not so much JenniAnn
and Rose. Why else would they be staring at the lap top?
They could care less about the Chiefs or Bulls or Giants or whoever
is. They just want to be near Andrew. I can't say I blame
them. I'm snagging him for a game of Checkers during halftime!"
Angie laughed. "I figured they were just checking scores of other
games." Before returning to the kitchen with Catherine and Yva,
she waved at JenniAnn and Rose who were sitting on the
stairs with the lap top. They occasionally glanced at Andrew,
smiling each time.
"Run! Run! Run!" the Maxwell boys shouted, echoed by a
chorus of angels of death and then a dejected "Awww..." as the play
ended with a dropped ball and the video went to a commercial. A
more enthusiastic and feminine "Awww!" followed from the
"Andrew, look!" JenniAnn walked towards him and perched on the
arm of his chair, holding the computer out to him.
"You look so cute!" Rose gushed, stepping behind the chair to see the
Andrew blushed. "You two..."
"We're being proactive. Labeling and sorting videos *before*
Valentine's Day. We can't help it if we get distracted," Rose
defended with a laugh.
JenniAnn giggled as she watched the video of Andrew. It had been
shot the previous September when a rather rambunctious game of Truth or
Dare had left Andrew busking in Central Park.
Getting up to get a drink, Joe passed the three and looked down at the
monitor. "Hey, you're pretty good! I have to say, though,
when I imagine an angel singing I just never think of Neil Diamond
Andrew stared up at Joe, his heart beginning to race.
"Look! This lady was totally into it and started
dancing!" Rose pointed to a figure on the periphery.
The angel's gaze shifted back to the screen. His eyes grew
"What!? Andrew, did you say that's Crystal?" JenniAnn asked,
"Ryan... when he was dying... he told me Crystal said she would meet
him where the angel sings. I assumed something from a play.
I looked at theatres. Or maybe a statue or stained glass window
with a musically-themed angel so I scoured the city looking b-but... it
was me. M-maybe's she's somewhere in Central Park." Andrew
jumped up from the chair. "Can someone drive me there?
"I'll take you," Joe offered.
"Joe, spend time with your brother. I'll take Andrew," Adam
"That sounds like the best plan. Thank you, Joe, Adam."
Andrew yanked his coat out of the closet and grimaced as he tried to
wiggle into it.
JenniAnn and Rose immediately moved to help him.
"No problem," JenniAnn answered. She moved to tie his scarf but
first cupped his chin in her hand. "You be careful. Don't
wear yourself out, Andrew. It won't comfort Crystal... or
anyone... to have you
pass out again!"
"That's right. So let Adam help you," Rose added.
Andrew embraced each of them. "I'll be careful. I promise."
"I'll keep him in line," Adam assured.
"What's going on?" Yva asked, stepping into the living room.
"I think I just might know where Crystal is," Andrew answered with a
Yva hugged him. "That's wonderful! Now just don't over do
The angel laughed. "Already been lectured." He drew in a
deep breath then. "Ready?" he asked his fellow angel of death.
"Let's go." Adam smiled encouragingly at his friend as they
stepped out. He prayed that Andrew would, indeed, find the
girl. It was what he needed to feel truly and completely at peace
with all that had happened.
Their friends gathered at the front window and prayed as the green
mini-van disappeared around the corner.
By the time the two angels had
reached the park, a light rain was beginning to fall. Undeterred,
Andrew walked as fast as he dared towards the place he'd been singing
in the video.
"Not too fast, buddy," Adam warned. "I don't want to get
clobbered by our friends if you wear yourself out."
"Where could she be, Adam?"
"Somewhere she would be able to see you, if you returned here.
Obviously that moment lodged in her mind."
Andrew spun around, looking for some place within view that might also
serve as a hiding place. He gaze fell on a drainage tunnel.
It wasn't the one frequently used by the Tunnel-dwellers but much like
it. He knew they were definitely large enough to house a person
in need of shelter. "There." Andrew pointed it out to Adam.
"Okay, let's go. But slowly..."
Andrew nodded. He walked alongside Adam to the tunnel. He
paused outside when they reached it.
"Do you want me to go in with you?" Adam offered.
"No, no... I'm fine. It's only... what if she's not in there?"
Andrew fretted. "Or what if she is and..."
Adam hugged his friend. "Whatever happens, God is with her.
You know that."
Andrew smiled, took a deep breath, and moved into the tunnel.
Moving under a tree to wait, Adam prayed. He checked his pocket
watch. Then again a while later. Five minutes had
passed. He wasn't sure how long he'd thought Andrew would be in
there but knew it had passed. He was about to enter himself when
he saw movement in the darkness. Andrew emerged.
Andrew walked to where Adam stood and sat down, leaning against the
trunk of the tree. "No sign of her. I guess I thought... it
seemed like the Father was trying to speak to me. What were the
odds of JenniAnn and Rose watching that particular video? Or of
Crystal being in it? Of Joe saying what he did, making me think
of what Ryan said?"
Adam crouched in front of him. "I don't know, Andrew. I'm
sorry it didn't work out. I really am." He hugged
him. "Come on, let's head back."
Andrew nodded and followed his friend through the rain which had begun
to fall in torrents.
Adam shook his head as he watched Andrew trudge back. Once they'd
reached the van, he waited for Andrew to get in then moved to shut the
door for him.
"Don't go," a voice called.
Andrew craned his neck, looking around for the source of the
voice. He didn't see anyone. Finally, he hopped back out of
the van. "Where are you?" he cried out. A moment later he
her. She was peeking out from behind a tree.
His heart soared and relief and gratefulness washed through him.
"Crystal!" Andrew beckoned for her, walking nearer.
"Who is he?" she asked, pointing to Adam and glaring at him
"A friend, Crystal. One of my oldest friends," Andrew replied.
Adam waved, smiling kindly at the girl.
It was all the assurance Crystal needed and she ran towards
Andrew. She stopped within inches of him, noticing his arm tucked
under his coat. "Th-they hurt you?"
He nodded. "But it'll heal. I was more worried about you,
Crystal. I've been looking everywhere for you!"
"I came back here. I thought you would come sing again. A
beautiful singing angel! Like in the carols."
Andrew smiled. "Yes, I am an angel. But I don't actually
sing here very often. Only that one time. I'm sorry I
didn't find you earlier. I wanted to so badly and I kept looking
but..." He held his good arm aloft.
Crystal slid into his embrace.
"Let's get you out of the rain, okay? Will you go with Adam and
me to a friend's? I promise I won't leave you."
Crystal nodded, nestling against his coat.
With Adam's help, Andrew got her tucked into the car with some blankets.
"Why don't you sit in the back with her?" Adam suggested. "I
think it would be good for you both."
Agreeing, Andrew climbed in beside the girl.
"They got Ryan and Maggie. I saw it on the TV," Crystal
murmured, bowing her head.
Andrew took her hand in his. "I know. I'm so sorry."
"Did you take them to God?"
"Yes, Crystal. I did."
"Like with my parents?"
Andrew looked at her in surprise. He'd wondered how she'd learned
he was an angel but he'd been so sure she couldn't have seen him on
that day, years before. "You saw me then?"
She nodded. "That's how I knew you were an angel when I saw you
singing. I remembered. Mom always said they watched over
us. You watched over us: me, Ryan, and Maggie."
Andrew wiped at a tear. "I sure tried."
"You did. There were just... too many bad people. It's not
your fault, Andrew." She used a corner of the blanket to
wipe the tears from his face. "It's never your fault. You
believe me, don't you?"
Andrew closed his eyes. He saw Ryan and Maggie, laughing and
talking animatedly as they walked through a brilliantly lit field
exploding with flowers of every color. There was no trace of the
worry, exhaustion, and despair that had lined their faces in the days
he'd spent with them. Maggie's smile lit up her whole face and
her eyes shone as they seemed to land on him. Giggling, she blew
him a kiss. Ryan waved, his smile also showing only warmth and
Opening his eyes, Andrew discovered that Crystal was still staring
expectantly at him. Adam, too, was glancing at him via the
rear view mirror. "Yes," he answered. "I do believe you,
Crystal. Thank you for reminding me. I needed to hear it
once more, I think."
Adam smiled at his friend then focused back on the road and the short
drive to the Phoenix.
Thanksgiving had been a day of
miracles. Andrew had spent it surrounded by friends, even Tess
and Monica had stopped by for dessert after finishing their
assignments. A family had been reunited. Though Jerry still
had his troubles, Andrew knew he realized he could trust his brother
and sister-in-law to help him through. Crystal was settled into a
loving, caring home. There she could safely face her struggles
with her illness and get help in coping with the loss of her
That night JenniAnn had reluctantly woken Andrew after
suffered nightmares. The angel had sat with her, talking about
Maggie and Ryan. He set the items he'd been saving for her on her
bed stand. She'd gone to sleep clutching her doll as he read
from Maggie's book. After praying over her, Andrew crept out of
the room. A dim ray of light at the bottom of the staircase
caught his attention. Someone was on the porch despite it being
well after 2:00.
"Laja?" he whispered, turning into the room.
She turned to him with a smile but he could tell she'd been crying.
"She's sleeping now. I know things will be rough for a while but
now that she's here, I'm hopeful for her. And more importantly
she's hopeful." Andrew smiled then focused on the woman.
"Laja, what's wrong?" he asked softly, sitting beside her on a wicker
She gently set her hand on his cast. "D-does it hurt?"
"I'm thinking you more than it does me by the looks of it."
"That's not really an answer."
"It is. And probably a truthful one. There's a dull pain
but I'm fine," he assured. "Now answer my question, please.
Laja, I know this wasn't an easy time
for you. Not for any of you."
"Andrew!" She stared at him, aghast. "You were living on
the streets! Whatever was going
on with me or any of us pales in comparison!"
"Not for me," the angel insisted. "When you could, all of you
listened to me and were with me when I needed you. And I was
very, very thankful for that. But now you need to let me do the
JenniAnn stood up and began to pace
the length of the porch.
"I... I don't know. I've just never felt so helpless or so...
so... enraged. When we had to go to the hospital... waiting...
not knowing..." She began to shake with pent-up worry and
sadness. "I... I wanted to be with you. To see you.
But I also wanted... I was so angry at them!"
Andrew reached for her hand. "Laja, you and all our friends were
far from being helpless. You all helped so much! And as for
the rage... I'd be concerned if you weren't angered by what's
happened. Anger isn't a sin unless it makes a person lose control
and hurt others."
"I'm not sure I wouldn't have hurt someone... had I been there when
that happened to you. If I'd been able to..." she admitted.
Andrew gently tugged her hand and pulled her back to the chair.
"We both know that if you'd been there you would have gone to me, not
after them. Of course, I would have been pretty angry with you
myself at that point." He smiled when he noticed her lips begin
to curl upwards in her own smile. "But I know you. Your
love would have outshone your anger. That's what I love about all
of you. That's why I'll be very glad to get back to Dyeland when
the time is right."
"Maybe..." she responded doubtfully, then smiled when Andrew cast her
his own look of disbelief. "Okay, you're right. I would
have focused on you, not them. But... that reminds me of
something else I was thinking about... before Rose
and I came to visit you in the alley."
"You must have done a lot of thinking that night... or morning, I guess
JenniAnn nodded. "Yeah. And sometime... soon... we'll talk
about it all. But the one thing I can't get off my mind..."
The sweet, compassionate look on Andrew's face shattered JenniAnn's
emotional barriers and in a torrent all her worries came out. "I
was thinking about how hard it's going to be... to get older.
Now... now we have been able to help you. To come to you when you
need us sometimes. B-but what happens years down the road?
This time it was Vincent's counsel that kept me from running to you the
minute Henry and Lin told me where you were. What happens when
it's my body o-or my mind? What happens when Rose, Yva, Lady
Vincent, Catherine... all us mortals are old? And th-then... what
happens when we die? What happens when there is no Dyeland for
you? What happens if 150 years from now you're sitting in another
alley, mourning another beloved assignment? All this time I've
felt so blessed that I will never have to mourn you. I know the
others feel the same. But somehow it never occurred to me that
your immortality also meant... 'Rest in peace' will never come
for you, will it?"
Andrew sighed, not knowing how he could put to rest such a
concern. "I wish I had an answer for you but I don't. Maybe
one day I will be Home for good. I don't know. I'm touched
that you'd think of that for me even though I wish you didn't have
those kinds of worries." His expression morphed into a smile as
he continued. "You know what I do know? When the time
comes, and I hope it's a long time from now, we'll all be together
there. And even when I do leave, I'll have those memories.
And when I come back... time simply... well, it just isn't in
Heaven. I'll have an
eternity with all of you in between assignments. That's just what
I know, Laja. Who can tell what the Father has planned?
Whatever it is, I know He planned it with nothing but love for each and
every one of us. Can you trust in that even when there's so much
we don't know?"
Thinking, JenniAnn was silent for a few moments. Andrew was
beginning to grow nervous when she tilted her face up to him,
smiling. "I can, yes. And even though you don't have all
the answers, the ones you shared do make me feel better. Thank
y..." She fought a yawn.
"I think it's time you get back to bed," Andrew suggested.
"Yeah..." JenniAnn admitted but simply settled against the cushion of
the love seat.
Andrew chuckled. "And yet you're not moving."
"I spose I'm kinda afraid when I wake up, you'll be gone," she
confessed, blushing. "I-I know it's probly babyish but... I am
"I will be there right next door. I promise you. And it's
not babyish." Andrew bestowed a consoling smile on her and kept
it to himself that he found her worries concerning his disappearing or
fading away to be more than a little irrational. And yet...
"That day... when you were four... how did you lose sight of me?"
JenniAnn stared down at her hands, nervously twirling her ring around
her finger. "As Catherine carried me away, I peeked over her
shoulder. You were walking down the alley and then you just got
see-through and then... nothing."
Andrew nodded as he realized, unwittingly, he'd done exactly what he'd
promised her he'd never do: disappear. For thirteen years.
"I will never, ever do that again. I promise. And I
wouldn't have done it that day if I'd realized... I didn't know you
could see me. It's still... Wow."
"I know. And you have enough on your plate right now so we'll
hash it all out later. But... thank you for the
promise. It meansh a lah..." She frowned after the yawn
"You're welcome. But now... bed time?" Andrew
stood and held his left hand out to her.
"It's okay. I'm much stronger now. These ladies kept
shoving plates of food at me," he teased.
Smiling again, JenniAnn accepted his help up. She stopped once
come to the door. "Andrew?"
"I have one more question. Actually, it's one some of the other
girls and I were trying to figure out earlier..."
His eye brow arching, Andrew looked down at his friend. "Go on."
"Well... it's just with your being right-handed and that being outta
commission... how are you gonna brush your hair?"
"Hmm... You know, I had given that some thought. I was
thinking I might get it cut really short. Maybe like a buzz cut?"
JenniAnn's face fell. "Oh... Well, yeah, I guess that makes
sense. That'd look... it'd look very nice. Very... nice."
Andrew squeezed her shoulder, laughing. "I was only kidding
you. I'll figure it out and I suppose if any one in our group
would like to try their hands at
men's hair styles I'd be willing to be a guinea pig."
JenniAnn enthusiastically hugged him. "Oh, I'm so glad! I
mean not that I wouldn't still love you with short hair... I mean you
had short hair when we truly met, after all... or no hair for
that matter, but it just... it would be sad. And... it might be
kinda fun to practice styling hair that isn't attached to my
scalp. I mean one never knows when
one might need a second career."
The angel chuckled. "Right... because that's exactly why you
asked about my hair: career exploration. Laja, I mean this is the
absolute best sense of the word: you're just a little crazy." He
beamed at her.
Giggling, JenniAnn nodded. "Your fault, though."
Andrew laughed. "So am I to be held accountable for every crazy
thing you've ever done since you were, well, four?"
"Sounds reasonable. I'll let the other ladies decide how many
years of their own craziness you should be held accountable for.
But, yes, twenty three of mine." JenniAnn's grin faded away after
a moment. "You're not upset with me for not telling you before
now, are you? I understand if you are."
Andrew shook his head. "I'm not upset. Still
surprised. But I understand why you kept it to yourself.
The truth is if I'd known a few years ago, I'm not sure I would have
handled it very well. Did you... were you really waiting for me
to come back?"
Hesitating for a few moments as she thought, JenniAnn began to pace
again as she answered. "Yes... and no. The little girl was
waiting for a fairy tale prince to come back... complete with an
entourage of singing animals like something outta Disney. Not
you. But later when I got older and would find myself reflecting
on that memory... I guess I was waiting. I just had this feeling
that..." JenniAnn's face reddened.
Andrew blushed himself, wondering what exactly the preteen JenniAnn had
imagined. "Tell me, please. Whatever it is," he requested.
"It's going to sound dopey."
"So what if it does? It's only you, me, and God here. And
He already knows and I wouldn't judge you."
"Okay... I had this feeling that when I found you again... I'd be
home. Truly. Well, as truly as I can be in this life.
And I was right in more ways than I could have guessed, Andrew.
Because it wasn't just a feeling of belonging and acceptance that I
found with you.
All of Dyeland really became a community, a home after you showed
For so many of us. And that's why, no matter what happens and no
matter how hard it may sometimes be, I can't step away from you.
You bring people Home and you do such an amazing job of it. But
you've also brought me and so many others a sense of... no... a *true*
home in this life, too." JenniAnn drew in a deep breath.
"Remember when Eli was in Beauty
and the Beast? And I cried and cried during the song where
the Beast seems to die? Into your shoulder for part of it, if
Andrew nodded, smiling. "I remember very well."
"Well, it wasn't just what was happening on stage, Andrew. It was
the lyrics. 'Don't you know how you've changed me? Strange
how I finally see: I found home. You're my home,'" she quoted,
brushing at tears. She reached for the angel's hand. "And
you always will be."
Andrew pulled his friend into a hug. "And that means so, so much
to me." He chuckled. "You're yawning again."
"I think you should head upstairs. You wait much longer and I'm
afraid I'll have to carry you... with one arm as if you were a
football." He grinned, the twinkle in his eyes apparent even in
the dim light. "And that just doesn't seem respectable."
Laughing, JenniAnn shook her head. "Alright, alright."
They went inside and Andrew waited as JenniAnn locked the door behind
them. They trudged up the stairs, parted with a hug at their
doors, and soon everyone in the shelter was sleeping soundly.
A Week Later
Shelby was trying to loop Andrew's
around his neck when JenniAnn and Rose trooped in, their
arms laden with freshly laundered clothing. They did their best
to stifle giggles. It was obvious the little girl had chosen the
tie which was covered in neon images of Mickey Mouse and clashed rather
spectacularly with the angel's tweed jacket.
"I don't get it." Shelby looked up to JenniAnn, imploring
her. "It won't tie right."
Andrew attempted it himself but quickly threw up his left arm in
defeat. "It's turning out to
be one of those things that's really hard to do one handed.
JenniAnn whispered something to Rose then approached Andrew and began
to do up his
tie. "No problem."
"Shelby, do you think you could help me fold these socks?" Rose asked.
The little girl nodded enthusiastically and sprawled on the floor with
the pile of socks.
Andrew smiled then leaned closer to JenniAnn, whispering. "Do you
think you could manage to grab me another tie without Shelby
noticing? I'm just not sure about Mickey Mouse at trial..."
JenniAnn grinned. "I already asked Rose to. She'll grab one
as soon as Shelby's occupied with rolling your socks. We'll
switch it on the ride over." She pulled back to get a better
view. "Tie looks straight to me. You're set!"
Andrew glanced in the mirror and nodded.
Rose deposited some clothing in a drawer then stood next to the angel
of death as he continued to stare into the mirror. "Are you
The angel shrugged and smiled at her. "Not really nervous
although I'm not
particularly looking forward to this. But, then again, I
I want to speak up for Maggie, Ryan, and the others."
"I know you'll do a great job," Rose assured. "And I'm glad
you're letting us go with you. I don't think you should testify
"I agree. But there are definitely some things I can do
alone." He noted JenniAnn buzzing around the room, putting away
his clothes. "Laja, please just relax. I'll put my own
clothes away later. It may take me longer but I can do it.
I could have even done my own laundry if certain individuals hadn't
insisted..." He looked from Rose to JenniAnn. "I don't want
any of you spending the next few weeks feeling like you need to take
care of me."
"Now, let's be fair here, Amish Boy," Rose protested. "Don't act
like you've never gone out of your way for us. Seems to me it was
you that patched up Aunt Josephine's roof when it started to leak."
"And unclogged my bath tub drain after it got a lil too much of my
hair," JenniAnn added as she put clothes away. "And fixed my
window when that storm broke
Shelby tugged on Andrew's good hand. "You fixed my
doll house. And built our tree house and our playground."
"There you go. Besides, Andrew, you know JenniAnn needed quality
time with your flannel," Rose
added, returning his smile then looking to JenniAnn who she fully
expected to tease her right back.
JenniAnn remained silent, leaning over one of the drawers, and
transfixed by something.
Andrew and Rose exchanged a concerned look, their levity
Catherine knocked on the door, causing JenniAnn to jump.
"Sorry. Just wanted to let you know that Willy and
Yva just stopped in with some brownies. I thought you might want
to grab one before we head to the court house."
Andrew smiled at her. "That sounds great. Thanks,
Catherine. We'll be right down."
Catherine sensed something was afoot and waved Shelby over to
her. "Hey, Shel, why don't we go save some brownies for them?"
The little girl nodded enthusiastically and ran down the stairs with
pursuit of the treats.
The angel returned his attention to JenniAnn. "Laja, what is
JenniAnn slid something off the top of the drawer. "Your driver's
"Oh, yeah. I noticed that showed up. Believe me, I won't be
driving like this. Don't worry." Andrew raised his
"I'm guessing I'll
need it at the courthouse today for ID," he explained.
The blonde woman continued to stare at the piece of plastic.
"Is the photo that bad? I better look again." Andrew
reached for it.
"Only if I get to see it after!" Rose insisted, eyes lighting up at the
prospect of soon having another bogus ID to add to her collection of
JenniAnn handed it to the angel who allowed Rose to look at it with
Rose smiled, admiring what was actually a very kind, characteristic
expression on Andrew's face. It wasn't at all the squinting, bad
hair day disaster she'd imagined. A moment later, however, she
stifled a gasp. She knew what had upset JenniAnn. It was
there just to the right of his photo: DOB: 9-20-1964. The last ID
Andrew had turned over to her for safekeeping had read 9-20-1974.
It was confirmation of something she'd suspected they'd all noticed but
none had spoken about. Andrew simply looked older. Now
there was the confirmation in black and white. God, not prone to
hyperbole or fits of worry, agreed.
After a week of being comfortably ensconced at the Phoenix, doted on by
loving friends, and very nearly spoiled; Andrew had rallied. But
he knew the strain of the assignment was still evident on his
face. And in his hair which had lost some of its luster. He
tired easily. As he dragged his hand through his hair, he noticed
that it was chapped and cracked. "I'm just a little tired still,"
he explained, his voice very soft. "Maybe once the trial is
over... maybe I'll look like my old... younger self. I'm sorry if
this has upset any..."
"No!" Rose interrupted. "It's just upsetting because it really
brings home what you experienced and the impact that had on you."
"The very obvious impact," Andrew muttered, glancing fleetingly in the
mirror before stepping away.
"But you can't think that changes how any of us feel about you!" Rose
JenniAnn drew Andrew back to the mirror and Rose stood at his other
side. All three of them looked at their reflections as JenniAnn
spoke. "I wish you hadn't been hurt. I wish your heart
wouldn't have been broken having to see what human cruelty wrought
here. I wish you looked as carefree and rested as you did that
last morning in Dyeland. But that doesn't change the fact that
right now, looking into this mirror, the Andrew I see is somehow even
more beautiful than that one of two weeks ago."
"I definitely agree to that," Rose seconded. "Because this
Andrew," she squeezed his hand, "has helped, encouraged, and loved even
more people. And while you've always been very handsome and still
are, that's always been what's made you beautiful."
Speechless but intensely grateful, Andrew attempted to hug them
both. He let out a much needed chuckle when he saw the new
reflection in the mirror. Rose received a hug like all the rest
he'd given her. JenniAnn's hug, however, had somehow resulted in
a lock of her hair becoming entwined in his sling. When
she moved a sizable chunk of her hair stood out at a right angle,
"Uh oh," Andrew squeaked out between chuckles.
"Andrew, Psyche, Rose: it's time to go!" Owen called, hustling up the
stairs. Turning into the room, he burst out laughing and looked
back down the hall. "Catherine, you better come here. Your
cousin has actually succeeded in physically attaching herself to
Andrew." He grinned at Andrew. "You, sir, seem to have
attracted a parasite."
"Brat!" JenniAnn hissed but her angry facade was diminished by
her laughter as she tried to break free. "And I prefer symbiont,
for the record."
"Are you the anemone and Andrew the clown fish or is it the other way
around?" Rose teased as she tried to extricate her friends.
Catherine and Yva walked into the room and both joined in on the
"Andrew's the clown fish, of course. He looks much better in
clown, well, mime make-up than I do," JenniAnn responded.
"And this hair looks much better on you than me," Andrew added, picking
at strands with his good hand. After a few tries he untangled
"Good job!" Yva cheered. "I wasn't sure about how the two of you
were going to get into the witness stand like that!"
Andrew laughed. "The judge would have loved that." The
bemused expression melted from his face. "I guess we better go."
Yva hugged him. "You're going to do wonderfully, Andrew.
And we'll all be right there for you. Now let's go grab you a
brownie before we leave."
"Okay, thanks." Andrew hugged her back then followed her out of
"For a moment there he looked... peaceful again." Rose smiled
Catherine hugged the young woman. "I've seen him look that way
frequently. He'll keep improving, you'll see."
"Oh, Psyche, what is it?"
"What if I can't bear to sit there and listen to what they did to him
and to the others?" JenniAnn murmured.
"I'm worried about that, too," Rose added.
Owen nodded. "I'm a little concerned about my ability to stay in
my seat myself."
Catherine pulled all three into a group hug. "It's going to be
hard but we're all going to sit there and we're all going to listen
because that's what Andrew needs us to do. Okay?" She
peered into three solemn faces and upon receiving three nods, she led
them out of the room to face the boys who had caused so much pain.
Andrew had given a testimony that
truly moved the jury, especially in contrast to the stony,
emotionless faces of his attackers. However, the victory was hard
won and the angel had been left shaken. Though he hadn't told
anyone, he'd been looking forward to the court date as one final chance
to help those boys see what pain they had caused. As he'd stared
out at them, he'd known he'd failed at that.
Sensing he needed
something pleasant to focus on, JenniAnn had invited him to accompany
her, the Tunnel children, and a few others on a trip to Central
Park. It was a mild afternoon and Andrew was cheered by seeing
the kids running around, sledding, and making snow people.
The angel was giving Shelby advice on how to create an optimal snowball
when he heard JenniAnn gasp. Spinning around, he saw she was
staring at a sixty something woman and that the lady was looking back
her. A moment later the stranger's gaze shifted to him. A
young girl at her side set off at a run and stood before him.
"Hi there," he greeted.
"Andrew!" she cried, flinging her arms around him.
Startled, Andrew patted the girl's head then looked questioningly at
the woman she'd been standing near. The lady was intently
with a mixture of surprise, sadness, and... tenderness? He
watched as JenniAnn took her arm and led her towards him. As they
approached, Andrew recognized her.
"Andrew, this is Myrna," JenniAnn introduced. "Do you remember
her from the Renaissance Faire?"
The angel nodded, blushing as he recalled her fussing over his tunic.
Myrna studied him. Tears filled her eyes when her gaze landed on
his right arm.
"Andrew, when I was with Myrna she told me she saw... she saw that you
were going to get hurt. I didn't believe her," JenniAnn lamented.
Andrew shook his head. "Laja, it wouldn't have changed
anything. You couldn't have done anything. But why... how
did you know?" he asked Myrna.
"Grandma sees some things sometimes. She has a gift," the girl
explained, proudly smiling at her grandmother.
Myrna smiled. "This is my granddaughter, Melissa."
"It's good to meet you, Melissa." Andrew stooped to shake her
The girl stared at him, enchanted, and seemed in no hurry to relinquish
JenniAnn hid her smile when Shelby, apparently a little jealous, began
to cling to Andrew's coat.
"Do you think we could... I mean you and whichever of your friends
would like to... meet for dinner?" Myrna asked.
Still very much confused, Andrew nodded.
"My cousin runs a shelter where we've been staying. Maybe we
could meet there? It's the Phoenix Inn, across from Adrian's
Coffeehouse. It'd give us some privacy we might not find in
a restaurant," JenniAnn suggested as she handed Myrna a business card.
"I'd love that," Myrna accepted. "If Andrew doesn't oppose."
The angel of death shook his head. "No... No, that's
great. I, uh, we'll see you then?"
"At 6:00?" JenniAnn asked. "Does that work for you?"
"Perfectly. Melissa, let's let them get back to what they were
doing." Myrna reached for the girl but her gaze never entirely
drifted from Andrew.
Reluctantly letting go, Melissa went to her grandmother.
Andrew, JenniAnn, and Shelby watched them walk away.
"What was that all about?" Lady Beth asked, leading over a group of
kids with whom she and Henry had been sledding.
"Andrew and I briefly met that lady at the Ren Faire. But I'm
beginning to think she has more history with our Andrew than anyone
knows just now," JenniAnn explained.
"There was something about her..." Andrew tried to place
her. It was in her eyes. Something familiar. He'd
noticed it that day at the Faire but had been too flustered and
concerned for JenniAnn to think much about it.
Shaking her head to dispel the oddness of the situation, JenniAnn
looked back to Lady Beth. "She and her granddaughter are joining
us for dinner. I guess
we'll find out then what's going on. I get Myrna being struck to
see you here, Andrew, but I wonder why Melissa acted as she did?
Andrew was still watching the two figures, lost in his thoughts.
He roused when Shelby slipped her hand in his. "Hey there,
kiddo. So let's see that snowball!"
The little girl proudly produced a perfect, icy sphere and showed it
off to the angel.
"Great job!" Andrew knelt down and whispered something to her.
A moment later Henry was hit in the back of the leg with the snow ball
as Shelby and Andrew did their best to look absolutely innocent.
The brown-haired angel of death chuckled and quickly moved to build up
his own arsenal of snow balls. Very soon the entire group was
engaged in a snow ball fight.
Andrew, Lady Beth, Rose, Yva,
JenniAnn, and Myrna sat at the Phoenix Inn kitchen table after the last
of the dishes had been cleared. They smiled as they heard
Melissa, Shelby, and the others debate what movie to watch.
Before long the discussion died down as a movie was selected and the
group in the kitchen
more easily followed each other's conversation.
"I'm still so surprised we met you here!" JenniAnn exclaimed, looking
at Myrna in amazement. "When everything happened... I wished I
had some way to contact you. To apologize for being short with
you if nothing else. I am sor..."
Myrna cut her off. "No need to apologize. Just because I
was right about that doesn't excuse the other things I've made up and I
do intend to make a change. But as for how we ended up here,
Melissa's mother is away on business so I thought a trip to New York
would be a nice way to distract her. I could never have
guessed..." She looked up at Andrew. "We've been thinking a
lot about you, praying for you."
Andrew smiled at her. "Thank you. I still don't understand
how you knew I was in trouble."
"It was when you followed JenniAnn into my tent. When I touched
you. I was overcome by this vision," Myrna explained. "I
don't usually have such vivid ones except with family and very close
friends. But you... I saw you looking..." She cringed.
"Homeless?" Andrew guessed.
The old woman nodded. "And you winced as if in pain." She
looked at his arm. "How did it happen, Andrew?"
"When you were here did you happen to see anything on the news about
the attacks on the homeless?"
Andrew nodded. "I was the last. They were apprehended right
gingerly lifted his right arm.
Myrna peered at JenniAnn. "Now I really wish I hadn't said that
stuff to you that day. Maybe if I hadn't rattled off about a
proposal of all things you might have taken me seriously and Andrew
Andrew set his hand on Myrna's arm. "No, Myrna. Everything
that happened had to happen. If it hadn't been me that night...
they might have killed someone else. I don't regret being out
there. It was very, very hard..." He gratefully accepted a
tissue from Yva. "But it was an honor to be there for some of
those people and to deliver them Home, to safety. And don't think
your prayers didn't help. They did, Myrna. They always
do. Thank you."
After a few moments of silence, Lady Beth spoke. "I wonder why
you had that vision of Andrew, though, if usually they only happen with
those you're close to?"
Myrna drew in a deep breath. "I'm not sure you'll believe me."
Rose smiled encouragingly. "I think we'd all believe a lot more
than you might think."
Nodding, Myrna went to her purse. "I asked a neighbor to fax this
over to me. I think you need to see this, Andrew." She set
a stack of papers in front of the angel.
"'The Journal of..." A lump caught in Andrew's throat as he
read. "'Nathan Wilkens.'"
The Dyelander women looked from one to the other, confused.
"Nathan was Hope's fiance," Andrew explained. "Hope Lewis."
JenniAnn gasped. "Oh... Andrew..."
"Look here, dear." Myrna stood behind Andrew's chair and flipped
through the pages. "There you are... an angel of mercy as Nathan
told it. A real angel."
Andrew nodded as the group stared in awe, looking at the centuries old
drawing of him.
"And here..." Myrna turned the page again, "is Hope, your friend
and my ancestor."
The angel stared at the beloved, much-missed face. Though
Nathan's drawing was only in black and white, it brought to mind the
color of her eyes and their sparkle. Andrew realized then why
Myrna had seemed familiar. He stood up and hugged the woman,
crying into her shoulder.
"I... I always wanted to believe some part of Hope continued on here,"
Andrew finally said.
"And I always wanted to believe that this," she waved to the book, "was
real. That there really was an angel there. That there are
angels around us still. I didn't want to think, like my dad, that
Hope had hallucinated you in grief. Her letter was too beautiful
for it to have been to someone who didn't exist."
Myrna looked at Andrew, surprised. "I thought you would have seen
it. It was a letter to you. After the trials, it was found
in the prison and given to Nathan. But I assumed you would have
Andrew shook his head.
"Then maybe it's been waiting for the right time." Shakily, Myrna
dug through the pile of papers and held one out to Andrew.
The angel swatted at his tears but couldn't keep them at bay and
returned to his chair.
"Andrew, would you like me to read it to you?" Yva offered. When
he nodded, she took the letter from Myrna and began. "'Dearest
Andrew, I am writing you from this lonely prison on what I know shall
be the last night of my life. I am shunned even by my fellow
prisoners. I am anathema to those who helped educate me. I
am rejected by the church which built my faith. I am
filthy. I am cold. I am cast out. I shall be killed
by those who were told to love me as themselves.'"
Myrna stroked Andrew's back as he laid his head down on the
table. It all sounded far too familiar and recent to him.
Yva hesitated but eventually continued her recitation. "'And yet
God has sent you to me. You have brought His love to this dark
corner. You have brought friendship to my lonely heart. In
your embrace, I know am not evil. I am not an object of
scorn. I am Hope. I am God's child.'" Yva handed the
letter to JenniAnn to continue as she reached for a tissue herself.
Steadying herself, JenniAnn began. "'My future is short,
Andrew. But yours shall be limitless. I ponder what will
come your away. I long to guard your heart and spirit as you have
guarded mine. I know this has been a difficult time for
you, Andrew. I... I can see it in your face, in your
eyes.'" She paused to look at him but his face was still
hidden. "'I hope soon you will smile again with the joy I first
saw in you. I know you will face much more pain and sorrow in the
years to come.
But I know you shall never be overcome by it. This is what I want
you to know: your presence has meant so much to me. In thanks to
you, I go without fear to face my new Life. Be at peace, dear
Andrew. Thy friend eternally, Hope.'"
Andrew sat up and took the letter from JenniAnn. As the paper
passed from her hand to his, the facsimile morphed into a sheet of
parchment. Hope's actual letter to him. He clasped it to
"I have to believe that what she wrote would be echoed by Ryan and
Maggie, Andrew. And Jerry and Crystal," Rose whispered. "By
who knew that you lived among them and suffered with them so they
wouldn't be alone. You helped them see that even if it seemed the
world cast them out... God and His angels never did."
Lady Beth crouched by Andrew's chair. "Andrew, you took Ryan and
Maggie Home. You brought Crystal to this home. We'll watch
over her. I promise you that. Right now... I think you need
to go Home yourself." She looked up at her friends' faces.
Though tears were in their eyes, they all nodded. "We think so."
Andrew nodded. "Thank you. There's so much I want to tell
you about what you've meant to me these past weeks..."
"And we'll be here, ready to listen, when you're back," Yva assured.
"Angels can get to Kansas, can't they?" Myrna asked, beaming at the
Andrew chuckled. "We can. And this one will be paying you a
visit. After I go Home. But first..." He hugged them
one by one.
There was cooing at the window and the women all turned to admire the
pure white dove, nestled on the snow covered windowsill. When
they turned back, Andrew was gone.
He was Home.
The Sunday night after Andrew's departure, the ladies of Dyeland had
gathered at the Cafe to
unwind. They'd been there
for nearly an hour when Tess had walked in... leading Andrew.
There had been much shrieking and hugging and excited cell phone
calls. People scrambled to finish a surprise they'd been working
on for Andrew and an hour later Tess and JenniAnn walked him over to
his house. As they stood on his porch, Tess produced a
JenniAnn bit her lip as Tess wrapped it around Andrew's head.
"Just be careful not to get his hair tangled up in it! That
Tess gave her a Look as she started to tie the blindfold. "Baby,
you're too anxious. How much caffeine have you had?"
Andrew chuckled. "Enough, I'm sure. But you know
what? How about I just close my eyes?"
"Promise you won't open them til we say?" JenniAnn checked.
"I absolutely promise."
Tess shrugged. "Alright then. No peeking. Here we
go, Angel Boy." She knocked and smiled as Adam opened the door.
"Hey, there buddy! You look great!" the elder angel of death
Everyone hovered around to see that this was, in fact, true.
Though Andrew's arm was still in a cast and he still looked older, he
appeared infinitely more
rested and contented than he had three nights before.
"I'd like to say the same of all of you but I'm not allowed to open my
eyes." Andrew grinned, stooping to pet Lulu and Fawn whose
locations were easily surmised by their wet noses pushing up against
"Just a lil bit longer. Here." Rose took his hand and led
him into the living room. "Everyone ready?"
A chorus of yeses answered her.
"Okay, open your eyes, baby!" Tess cried.
Andrew looked around to see that Monica, Henry, Yva, Eli, Sir Sven,
Willy, Nigel, Lady Beth, Owen, Josephine, Vincent, Catherine, Mick,
Beth, and some of the Tunnel children were all crammed into his
festively decorated living room. Behind them stood his Christmas
tree and beside it all his ornaments, unwrapped and ready to be
hung. Another table was brimming with carafes of cider and hot
chocolate and plates of cookies galore. A banner reading "Welcome
Andrew!" ran across the front of it.
"We thought you might like a little Christmas cheer to welcome you
back, Andrew," Monica explained.
"With lots of Christmas food!" Eli added, surveying the impressive
spread with wonder.
"I... yeah... wow... This looks great!" Andrew's face lit
up as he turned around, surveying their work. "You all...
thanks. Thanks for everything you've done for me." He
smiled at Rose, JenniAnn, Yva, and Lady Beth. "You were right
that I needed to go Home. I really did. But now... now I'm
happy to be home here, too. It looks like you have everything
ready for one heckuva decorating party!"
"And it's only part one of two. I've invited all of you over to
decorate the Phoenix tomorrow. Crystal and Cira are really hoping
you'll be there, Andrew. Do you think you can make it?" Catherine
"I'll be there!" Andrew vowed, beaming. "So what are
we doing first here?"
"Hugs first!" Shelby cried.
Andrew chuckled and happily obliged, greeting first the little girl
then each of them. Once he'd made the rounds, drinks were poured
and plates of cookies passed around as ornaments were hung.
Through out the evening, Andrew found himself stepping back and
admiring the sight of so many people he cared about gathered together
in his home. He briefly thought back to that troubling night in
Catherine's kitchen and to the psalm he had prayed along with JenniAnn:
"One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in
the house of the Lord all the days of my life."
Andrew knew that his prayer had been answered. As an angel, he'd
always known that God's true house was simply love. He felt
it perfectly and completely in Heaven but standing there in his living
laughter, friendly embraces, and the amused recitations of shared
memories; the angel recognized he was very nearly Home there,
The following were referenced or
quoted in this story:
Psalm 27- New American Standard Bible
Law and Order
"Transformation" from Beauty and the Beast, music
by Alan Menken, lyrics by Tim Rice
These are the songs that inspired me
for this part:
"Love, Reign O'er Me" by Pearl Jam- I believe this was the first song I
really connected to this story. I'd actually want this one played
were this an episode of a TV show. I can't decide whether I'd
want it played over the scene of Mick, Vincent, Adam, and Joe racing to
the alley or over the scene of Andrew searching the park for
Crystal. Maybe both?
"Have a Little Faith" by Michael Franti & Spearhead- This I would
use over a juxtaposition of images from the hospital after Andrew was
admitted, doctors working over him, with his friends worrying, them
going to consult with the doctor, etc.
"Here With Me" by Dido- This has been one of my "Andrew songs" for a
long time. I had it in mind when I was writing the scene of
Andrew and JenniAnn on the porch. Her angsting out about Andrew
never resting in peace made me think of these lyrics: "And I won't
go. I won't sleep and I can't breathe until you're resting here
"Your Arms Feel Like Home" by 3 Doors Down- Credits song. It
works on so many levels. Andrew and God. Crystal and
Andrew. Andrew and anyone with a tie to Dyeland.
"God Help the
Outcasts" by Bette Midler- Yes, from The Hunchback of Notre Dame
a la Disney. I thought of it at odd moments during the story,
especially during the reading of Hope's letter. Plus, it always
kinda reminds me of Christmas.
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