“You are more powerful than you know;
you are beautiful just as you are.” ~ Melissa
Etheridge
Hi all,
As I was working on a story, the idea for a new feature
popped into my head: Answering the Unanswerable.
Unlike other Q and A based features that we've had on JABB a
la "Ask a JABB Co-Creator," there aren't definitive
answers. All I can do is theorize. So that's
what I'm going to do. If you have an unanswerable
question left over from TBAA or a Dyeland story, please let
me know. Or if you have an alternative suggested
non-answer to a question you see here and would like to
share it, please let me know that, too. If you'd like,
I'll even put it in a future newsletter.
Anyway, we'll test this out and see how it goes!
God bless,
Jenni
Answering the Unanswerable:
Part One
So before I get into this, I think it's only right to share a
little bit of information about what's going to inform my
answers. Firstly, I was raised Catholic though with
assorted Protestant influences from within my family.
C.S. Lewis is one of my very favorite authors and his writing
was informed by his Anglican faith so that's a hefty
influence. I received seventeen years of Catholic
education, including a B.A. degree in Theology from a Catholic
university. But I'd urge everyone to remember that was
nearly twenty years ago. So nothing about my answers should be interpreted as any sort of
official stance of Catholicism or even just Christianity in
general. Could be, could not be. I'll quote the
Bible and other religious texts as seems appropriate to me
but, as always, my interpretation of them is far from the only
one. If any of these questions interest you, I'd urge
you to do your own digging. And here we go...
Question: If God knows everything, why does He send Andrew on
assignments where the outcome is unknown to Andrew? Like
why put Andrew through the angst of trying to reach John
Wilkes Booth if God knew that he was going to inevitably kill
President Lincoln? Andrew wasn't going to change the
outcome so why allow him to think he could knowing he would
then carry the guilt of not succeeding?
Attempted answer: Firstly, the episode "Beautiful Dreamer" is
an episode that I love but which also contains one of my least
favorite moments in TBAA. Tess basically says that JWB
went to Hell. Look, I have no fondness for the
man. But I also have no idea what his final moments were
like and what he and his Creator might have spoken of. I
think it's folly for humans to assume that we know the moment
when spiritual reckoning becomes impossible. We still
argue about when physical death actually happens! We
don't know if, just before his true death, JWB repented.
And because he is an actual person and not a creation of
Martha Williamson and Co., I think it's inappropriate to say
he went to Hell. We have no idea. So...
Let's pretend that line from Tess doesn't exist. Without
it, there's still a possibility that when JWB was still alive
but unable to speak, Andrew's words began to sink in and he
accepted that he'd sinned and sought forgiveness from
God. Just because Andrew and the soldiers couldn't hear
him, that doesn't mean God couldn't. So it's possible
that putting Andrew through that angst actually led to
redeeming a lost soul which I think Andrew would agree made it
worthwhile.
Now let's consider that Tess' line is accurate. If
fictionalized JWB protested his fate, I think his argument
becomes weaker when someone can say "Look, God sent you a
literal angel to help you see the truth but you would not
listen. You had every opportunity to back out. You
didn't. This is on you, man." I think of it as
being similar to a court case. It would be absolutely
unfair to try someone without allowing them to have a defense
attorney. Having an attorney doesn't mean they'll be
found innocent. But (barring some sort of malfeasance)
it does mean they were given a fair trial. They may
still not like the outcome but they can't say they were denied
counsel. In this case, Andrew might still feel like he
failed and that's unfortunate. But I think someone who
cares could easily lay out how his good work was still
important even if it didn't give him the outcome he
wanted. Hopefully that would take some of the sting
away.
I think an argument could also be made that, regardless of the
outcome for JWB, the assignment allowed Andrew to stretch and
improve his skills as an angel. So even though it was
frustrating and sad, it did help him develop as an angel and
that's ultimately a positive. He even got promoted
directly after this case.
Now... All of this begs the question of why God didn't
just explain "Look, JWB is gonna do what he's gonna do and he
will kill the President but because of free will, we have to
give him every opportunity to change. So, Andrew, please
do your best." Knowing there was no way he was going to
change JWB's mind, Andrew might have seen his role as more
perfunctory and, thus, not been as distressed when he "failed"
because he knew from the get-go that he was not going to
change the man's mind. But... angels may be near perfect
and Andrew especially so. But they're not perfect.
I think if they 100% knew the outcome of something, they may
not bring the same passion and emotion to their work which
would make their jobs a lot less fulfilling.
And now leaving the TBAA world to drift into the Dyelandverse,
I think it's vital that Andrew gets promoted to AOD directly
after this assignment. While I suppose he could have
gotten promoted at any other point, this is the assignment
that impressed God enough for Him to grant Andrew the
promotion to AOD. Fast forward to 2000 and Andrew meets
JenniAnn and her friends. I think it's safe to say that
Andrew-the-AOD was more alluring to JenniAnn than
Andrew-the-caseworker would have been. She was
seventeen. Coolness mattered then. And AOD is a
much cooler sounding title than caseworker. Plus,
there's that whole rich "Death and the Maiden" archetype that
JenniAnn was very tuned into. As an adult, she builds a
relationship with Andrew based on his personality and actual
self... not a title. So it's not accurate to say she
fell in love with Andrew because of him being an AOD.
But it certainly helped get her attention and, without that,
who knows how their lives may have changed. Is it
possible that had Andrew not gotten promoted to AOD, JenniAnn
would have married and built a life with someone else? I
think so. And God would know that. So quite
possibly, God gave Andrew a seemingly doomed assignment just
because the ripple effect would be that Andrew-the-AOD would
wind up in Dyeland where he'd meet JenniAnn who would
eventually fall in love with him and build a family with
him. We see something like this in the story of Joseph
who ultimately concludes "You intended to harm me, but God
intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the
saving of many lives" (Genesis 50:20). What was
originally an extremely negative experience (getting sold into
slavery by his own brothers) leads to countless people being
saved from starvation and Joseph meeting his wife and having
children with her. If we could go back to 1865 and ask
Andrew if he would prefer to skip out on a heartbreaking
assignment with JWB but at the cost of losing his anam cara
and children, I think we all know that the Andrew of the
Dyelandverse would say "No... Give me the
assignment." And God would know that.
This is just one example of the many times angels had "it
could go either way" assignments. And they can be really
hard to reckon with. But I think it's the ripple effect
argument that I find most compelling. As mortals, we
can't possibly see what God can see. It's like He's
playing the most complicated game of chess ever. Only He
knows how one seemingly devastating move will reap a series of
beneficial moves later. Andrew would never know how many
lives would have been altered by his not becoming an AOD in
1865. But God knows and He made the move He did because
of knowing that. It may not help Andrew in the
moment. He still felt sad and disappointed in
himself. But, eventually, I think he came to understand
that everything happened as it needed to.
State of the Stories
And now for what has,
unfortunately, become a recurring feature albeit one not
named til now: an update on how Dyeland stories are going
given the ongoing COVID pandemic.
Firstly, while the pandemic is a lot to blame for the lack
of movement with the stories I'd planned, I also remain
very busy with housework. I've taken this week off
work in hopes of getting on-track with that so I can focus
on writing. Here's hoping that goes well!
Secondly... it's totally the pandemic. Both of the
big stories I have planned involve crowds. Given
I've established that Andrew and JenniAnn are very
cautious due to her compromised health, I have to put off
their anam cara ceremony story until I can believe they
would agree to a big party. I'm hoping for late
October on that but who knows with the breakthrough cases
with Delta. At least in that case I can cite that
all the Friends have been vaccinated and did rapid tests
and *maybe* have them still gather with some precautionary
measures. But...
The grand re-opening of St. Genesius' Community Theatre
and the return of Joshua to the stage in Jesus Christ
Superstar is trickier. Because then we're talking
about the public. And no one would want to put
anyone at risk. And, no, I'm not even considering
having Joshua just go around healing nascent COVID
cases. Broadway is starting to re-open so I'll pay
attention to that. So long as nothing goes
completely awry, I'll probably have the Friends put on
their annual Christmas revue as normal and then move into
Jesus Christ Superstar preparations. If things do
get really bad... Honestly, I'll probably still do
the JCS story but shift it to them rehearsing for a
no-audience production that's going to be aired on TV or
something like that.
Once this week is over and my house is, hopefully, in at
least something approaching order, I hope to write a
handful of short stories to bide the time. We'll
see!
This newsletter is dedicated to John
Dye for providing some light at the end of this house
cleaning tunnel.
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