"As
I get older, the more I stay focused on the
acceptance of myself and others,
and choose compassion over judgment and curiosity
over fear."
~~Tracee Ellis Ross
Hi all,
Yours truly is dealing with some rather major plumbing
issues in my house. It's all on schedule to be fixed
but coming right after Mousegate, I've been a bit stressed
and scatter-brained. As I've had time and clarity, I
put together some questions that have come up in
conversation or that I just plain wanted to answer whether
anyone had asked or not. ;-) There's no real
theme or anything. But I hope you get something out of
it! And, hopefully, I didn't repeat myself though it's
possible!
God bless,
Jenni
Ask a JABB Co-Founder...
Misc. Stuff
Question: Why did you pick Froot Loops
as Joshua's favorite cereal?
Answer: I think it was a somewhat random choice. I also
think I wanted fruit in the name so I could have the line
"Froot Loops don't grow on trees." "Rice Krispies don't
grow on trees" just didn't have the same ring to it since
fruit does actually grow on trees and rice doesn't. I
also thought Joshua would be drawn to the rainbow colors since
rainbows are associated with God. What makes it random
is I'm not sure why I chose Froot Loops instead of, say,
Fruity Pebbles which I actually prefer. Maybe I thought
Froot Loops seemed more wholesome somehow?
While I enjoy the occasional bowl of Froot Loops, they're
definitely not my favorite. That honor would go to Lucky
Charms although I sometimes swing to chocolate Frosted
Mini-Wheats.
Yes, I'm 36 years old and still eat cereal with cartoon
characters on the box. ;-)
Question: TBAA had a sort of "10
Commandments" for the writers. Do you have a similar
rule book for when you write the Dyeland stories?
But then there are also a lot of other rules I hold myself to
that aren't really written down any where like:
1. Don't sacrifice goodwill towards God for a plot
point. By this I mean I wouldn't do something like TBAA
did with "The Blue Angel" and have Gloria believe she was
going to need to strip on TV. I'm sorry but that's
twisted as all get out. I don't honestly know how that
got into an episode except to say that a lot of us felt uneasy
and not quite ourselves after 9/11 and maybe that showed in
some poor choices and maybe the writers weren't immune from
that. I'm not interested in eliminating all suffering
and confusion from my stories, of course. It's a fact of
life that we all experience that and part of faith is
believing that God will bring good from both. But if
there was an upside to a one year old angel thinking she was
going to be exploited... well, that was lost on me. It
made God look like a sucky parent. So I want to avoid
that.
2. Emotion is not inherently sinful. So it's going
to sound like all my rules are reactions against TBAA.
And maybe they are? But stuff like Andrew getting chewed
out by Tess in "The Violin Lesson" really bothered me.
Righteous anger is a legitimate thing. Speaking truth
even when it makes people angry can be a very healing
thing. TBAA seemed to get this in many other
episodes. I'm not sure what happened with the otherwise
stellar TVL. So I'll never show an angel or human
getting chewed out by Joshua or a spirit or angel just for
being emotional unless they actually did something else that
harmed someone. Joshua Himself was known to have
emotional outbursts, including at least one that got a bunch
of stuff smashed in the Temple. If that's okay, I can't
imagine how Andrew's intervention with Jordan was bad.
3. Not every "villain" gets or even deserves sympathy
within the confines of a story. One of the many nice
things about having Joshua as an active, present, visible
character is that I can kinda dangle loose ends on him.
I can introduce a character, have them do terrible things, and
yet give some possibility that, through God's mercy, they
might be redeemed... but allow that to happen "off screen" at
a time suitable to the reader's imagination. I think the
nature of a 45 minute drama sometimes made TBAA rush to a
redemptive spot with their problematic characters. One
example that comes to mind is Carl in "Full Moon." While
it's a matter of my faith that even the vilest of people can
be redeemed, I can't in the span of 45 minutes watch the
aftermath of a rapist's attack AND feel sympathy for said
rapist just because we get a glimpse of their horrible
childhood. That takes a lot more time. So I have
no problem leaving a "villain" in a bad spot with simply an
implication that Joshua is working in their lives. I
don't expect readers or even the other characters to forgive
them by the end of a story. Forgiveness is a process
that sometimes takes years and years and that's as it should
be.
4. A story can be really dark... but it has to end with
hope. That doesn't mean every little thing has to be
neatly tied up (see above) because that's not life. But
nihilism isn't allowed. Nobody needs that.
Question: So there were obviously some
things TBAA did that bother you. But are you bothered
by anything you wrote?
Answer: Yes! Pretty much everything marked as
noncanonical on the Story
Index... and even portions of the early canonical
stories. That being said, I was very young at the time
and it's certainly better than other things I could have
gotten into. But still... ::shudder:: I actually
won't reread them.
But there's even some stuff in the more legitimate Dyeland
stories that now bother me. Firstly, I don't like how
JenniAnn and others basically demanded that Andrew confide in
them when assignments got him down. It makes sense and
their pleas/threats are in character. But it bothers me
that I thought their behavior was not only okay but
actually warranted. Andrew shouldn't hold things in,
true, but demanding he unload his emotional turmoil on them on
penalty of the loss of their friendship... That's not
cool.
I also don't like how incredibly slowly Andrew's and
JenniAnn's relationship evolved. Again, it's pretty much
in character for them both to be reluctant to push any
buttons. But I'm bothered by the fact that I was myself
so prudish that I wouldn't let them evolve any more
quickly. I truly never intended for them to be as close
as they now are. And that's unfortunate. I think
some of the earlier stories would have been richer if I'd
known exactly what I was building to.
Question: This has been on my mind since
the last couple episodes of This Is Us...
Could you foresee Andrew and JenniAnn having a big, blow-out
fight?
Answer: Never say never, I guess. As I wrote above, they
already have diverged from what I imagined for them even five
years ago. But they're no Randall and Beth.
;-) I think they're both much more low-key and, unlike
the Pearsons, highly value downtime. The idea that
either of Andrew or JenniAnn would go full-throttle on
anything (career, politics, arts) seems out of
character. So the whole "you following your dream leaves
no time for my dream" problem is non-existent. But...
there's already some evidence of potential disharmony.
Andrew and JenniAnn have similar outlooks on parenting and
what they need to do for their kids... except when it comes to
Violeta. Andrew views her as more of the adult that she
was created as. It's not that he's not protective of
her. He just expects a bit more from her.
JenniAnn, on the other hand, almost seems to have start
counting Violeta's age from the time she appeared in
Dyeland. So, to her, Violeta is a little girl who just
happens to be in college. Thus far, this has caused only
minor bickering but I think that could get a little more
heated further on down the road.
And in the name of all that is holy... Andrew and JenniAnn
would NEVER bring up the other's mental health struggles in
the midst of a fight. I absolutely cringed when Beth
said what she did on TIU. Low, low blow... And
sorry for anyone who doesn't watch TIU but ugh... Just
had to get that off my chest.
Question: So is there anything you miss
from the older stories?
Answer: From the non-canonical ones? No! I do miss
some of the characters and their creators from the older
stories, of course.
I also really miss the mythical aspect of earlier
stories. I've kinda just stalled with the
Cupid/Psyche/"Beauty and the Beast" angle with Andrew and
JenniAnn. I think the last time I did anything with a
mythical angle was Isolde's backstory. I was going for a
feminist take on the Dearg Due and really like how that came
out. So maybe I'll get back to something like that
eventually. Spinning Christian tales is a lot of fun, of
course. But seems like I should be able to find a way to
do both!
And that'll do it for now!
This newsletter is dedicated to John Dye
for inspiring this safe space that is JABB/Dyeland.
I've just started the movie Hereditary and I think I
may need that safe space real soon... Creepy!
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