"I've run the
A to Z.
cheers and dammit,
through all of last year
at least I was there,
Still Here" from Stephen Sondheim's Follies
we made it! JABB is 10 years old! We're still here!
And I am beyond thrilled and hope I'm not the only one! Congrats
to one and all! We've
made it through TBAA's cancellation, Manion, web host upheaval, email
problems galore, tragic passings, joyous celebrations, countless global
crises, countless personal crises, and whatnot. In other words:
we are awesome! I think I can safely say we are the single most
successful online fan club devoted to an Angel of Death and the man who
played him. ;-) But there's no sense in my just yammering
on in this intro paragraph. I'm gonna turn this over to my fellow
JABBers to help us celebrate our decennial!
One thing I've noticed is that
JABBers' are pretty darn good at sharing
their thoughts and feelings. So first up we have three members
doing exactly that with....
Letters to JABBers
That’s pretty silly
sounding, huh? But, I guess it would sound
better than writing:
Dear Jenni, Jennifer, Karen,
Nicole, Sorrow, Liz, and anyone else I
might have missed.
Whatever the case, you know
who you are.
After writing about two
pages of silliness and seriousness for all of
you to laugh, cry, or line your bird cage with, I have tried to
contemplate what I would say here that would tell you how much your
presence means to me. This group has become an important part of
my life. I have joked a lot, sounded utterly insane at times, but
I’m truly grateful to you for being such an intricate part of my life
during these past few years.
hard for me to believe
that JABB has been around since before I
started liking TBAA back in 2000. I don’t remember the day I joined the
list, I do remember
CABB 1, and laughing heartedly at the April Fools Joke that Audrey and
Jenni cooked up. I thought it
was brilliant, and I fell for it hook, line, and sinker.
At the same time, I also
remember crying when Charles Rocket passed on
and how I returned to the group to contend with grief and sadness, as
well as writing ‘The Legacy’. It struck me as to how we helped
each other through the support, the memories and the tears, but also
the joy and the positive impact that remained long after the tears had
ceased to fall.
We’ve been through so much
together, so many things that in other
places may have caused a group to disband or fall apart. We held
tightly to each other these past years, and we empowered each other
with our prayers, thoughts, and loving support. There is really
nothing more that could have been done or changed. This group is
unique and it is what keeps the spirit of ‘Touched by an Angel’ alive
in my heart. Without it, I would probably have moved on and my
appreciation of the show would have dwindled to a thing of the
past. It is sad to say, but it is the truth, without JABB I would
have most assuredly moved on. You have kept the message of the
show alive inside of me.
I wish for this ten year
anniversary, another ten years of sharing,
caring, love, and hope. May that be the message that we continue
with. When dusk falls and we look back on what TBAA taught us,
the underlying truth of God’s unconditional love will always remain,
and that is the message that JABB has solidified for me.
For that, my sincerest
thanks and congratulations!
Namasté & Love,
can hardly believe it has been 10 yrs since 2 young teenagers
started JABB. There has been so much that has gone on.
ado about Andrew's haircuts. Long, short, medium. It seemed like
everyone had an opinion of one of them.
murder trial that wasn't. Jenni brought it to us and satisfied
cries. It was just what our imaginations needed.
has now taken over the running of our list and Dyeland. She has
done a wonderful job and didn't have to. Due to her hard work and
dedication she has kept us entertained and amused and even thinking.
have been a member for almost the whole 10 years and will continue to
do so until Jenni calls it quits.
my thank you to all who have participated over the years. Peaked
my imagination and made me laugh. Some have brought tears to my
Thank you Jenni and all JABB members past and present who have
contributed in some way.
was going to write another
letter to all of you but I've done that in
the past and that's kinda what the introductions of these newsletters
also are. So instead I decided to write the following. I
sometimes wonder what my 15 year old self would think about JABB
*still* being here. I dunno. But I do know what I'd tell
her about us if I could. Here it is:
15 Year Old Self:
there ya are, Loreena
McKennitt CD playing, incense burning, and
wondering what Junior year of high school will be like. And also
giggling over a 12 Step program you and your Internet buddies made
up. And you're wondering what's gonna happen now that it's been
sent to dozens of people. So I'll tell you.
first couple years are
gonna be a giggly, good time with over 200
people subscribing. Sure, you'll get the random person that sends
an angry email cause they feel you should be reporting actual JD news
(which, btw, if you're thinking you're lacking that now... just
wait. You don't know what news drought is, kiddo!) But
mostly it'll be a lot of fun people and late nights chatting about hair
and various shirts and how you'll probly never, ever date cause there's
just no way anyone will ever equal Andrew. But then something
that Andrew will
become less cute/handsome. It's not
that TBAA will suddenly be awful. It's not even that people will be less
enthusiastic and you'll struggle to get feedback or submissions
for newsletters (although
that will happen at times but try not to panic). You'll
simply lose interest. Somewhere between the high school diploma
and assorted college credit hours, you'll think about Andrew a lil
less. You'll wonder why you were ever that upset about "The
Journalist." You'll even goof up and forget to tape a couple TBAA
episodes while you're out. You'll still write JABB
newsletters. Later you won't really remember what you wrote but
you got it sent and that's the important part. But it'll seem
like a drain on your already diminishing free time and, really, is
Andrew that much more compelling than Daphne and Niles'
will-they-or-won't-they? And Mr. Darcy is awfully attractive and
maybe it's better to daydream about Pemberly than sympathetically
sitting on staircases or running frantically down alleys in pursuit of
that lone, golden figure. But then...
comes out that TBAA is
canceled. Each episode now seems
precious. And you remember the last scenes of "Portrait of a
Lady" which you watched twice, not because you enjoyed it, but because
Christian Bale has a small part and, of course, you MUST watch every
Christian Bale movie. Remember the part where Isabel finally
pulls herself together and ditches all those guys she'd been swooning
over and returns to Ralph who she really shoulda stayed with the whole
time? And then Ralph dies. Well, it's like that! Cept
Andrew's immortal and can't get struck down by TB or even
cancellation. Happy day!
that's just my very odd
way of saying: don't give up. The
inspiration will come when it needs to. And guess what?
More people will come! Friends, truly. And there'll be
something called Dyeland
which will just be plain awesome! It's not that you'll never get
frustrated but people will help you through that. And they'll
also help talk you down when you go ballistic over the slight against
Andrew that you've noticed most recently.
and, btw, you will never,
ever date cause there really is just no
way anyone will ever equal Andrew. ;-)
would hope that after spending a while as a JABB member, people would
come to value certain aspects of the group. Below, Yvette and I
share what some of those things are for us!
My top ten favorite JABB
memories or things that make JABB so special.
I think that one of the things I loved most about JABB was the ability
to leave the group for a small duration of time, and then return again.
It was that feeling of coming home that really stands out in my mind. It is sort of like being away on a journey and
then returning to the bond of friendship that had somehow permeated the
2. Along those same lines, the knowing that although my faith and
philosophies are different than that of other members of the group, I
am accepted. I know that people don’t
always agree with me, but there is a mutual understanding that my
beliefs are right for me and respect for that. Given
my experiences, this is a rarity in the overall TBAA fandom.
3. Being able to be serious and write about real life and real
issues, but at the same time also being able to play a little in a
fantasy-like place that is created by the members of the group. When I first found a place where both Andrew
and Vincent hung out, I was elated and knew instinctively that I was
going to have some serious fun here...and I have.
4. I will freely admit that winning one of the contests has been
a personal highlight as well as a great memory for me.
It is perhaps because I spent so much time researching the
answers, but also because it was a very interesting time for me. I had been back in the group for less than
half a year and then I won a contest. It
was a nice feeling, and the prize was a wonderful reminder to me that I
was in a place where I belonged.
5. I will always remember the exploration of relationships with
other people that I got through this group. JABB
helped me in some ways accept the passing of my father, but there were
also aspects of this group that helped me embrace that his passing was
simply a passing and not some cause / effect thing.
In other areas of the fandom, it was displayed as some sort of
punishment. JABB, in many ways, helped me
find healing through the underlying message of the show.
6. The group is fun, and while it goes through changes, it
somehow remains true to what TBAA was truly about; platonic friends,
embracing the love of a Creator who is unconditional, and keeping
things fun. There was never a place for
condemnation of others, there was just friends having fun, agreeing to
disagree and sharing a bond of friendship.
7. Another fond memory that I have found here is the overwhelming
support; not just the prayerful support, but the overall acknowledgment
of issues and the discussion of them. I
have come to realize that in the ten-year-history of JABB, we have
discussed issues of annoying neighbors, the loss of a pet, illness,
depression, job woes, and the list goes on and on.
How many groups online can honestly profess to such a loving
support system as this? That makes JABB
8. My favorite Dyeland memories were perhaps bringing in Nigel
and Willy to the story. I had dappled
around with other characters, but these two are so special to me and
they are characters that I dearly love. Nigel
because I was able to acknowledge my guardian angel and his presence in
my life. Through writing Willy Wonka as a
character in Dyeland, I have been able to live out an internalized
fantasy that I have had since I was a child…that is having and sharing
a relationship with a paternal figure. (In real life, that is embodied
in my father-in-law.) But, to use these
characters in Dyeland has become a very special feeling for me.
9. As an extension of number eight, through the fantasy of
Dyeland, I have become a better writer. I
have used the characters as a way of developing their stories, and
trying to bring out and make them seem real and tangible.
In writing, whether it be fan fiction or original works, this is
difficult. In fact, Dyeland has helped me
with regards to character development, so there is something quite nice
about being 37 and still being able to tap into one’s fantasy at will.
understanding, JABB…it’s one of the greatest
groups online, and one that I will stay with until the final curtain
falls…in say 40 or 50 years?
the letter I knew I
wanted to write, I also wanted to include
some sort of list. The prospect of "My Favorite JABB Memories"
made me nervous that I'd forget something and make someone feel left
out. Then I thought maybe I should restrict myself to the
newsletters which are all documented and so it's not like one can just
go missing. But "My Favorite JABB Newsletters" didn't seem quite
right, either. So I'm going with "The JABB Newsletters I Am Most
Proud Of." These may not even be newsletters I particularly
like. But each one represents a milestone for JABB and so, yes,
I'm proud of them. And, in many cases, several of you should be,
nothing particularly spectacular or original
about it. But I'm proud of the fact that a couple teenagers had
the guts to send out and later put on the web something like that, not
knowing what the reaction would be. I can't speak for Audrey but,
by and large, I'm pretty happy with this 10 year reaction we've gotten!
Christmas Carol JABB Style" is the first story
that made its way into a JABB newsletter. It's one thing to write
a few short form jokes, introducing stories into our repertoire was
kinda scary. Also, the annual Christmas story parodies/allusions
is one of our oldest traditions and starts right here!
remain horrified that we wrote John into this
story, it *is* the first Dyeland story. And I'm just not sure
we'd even still have JABB without Dyeland. Course, I do feel the
need to now point out that "John" in Dyeland stories was later revealed
to be George, a local actor Cliff (the lonely magician) paid off to
pretend to be JD so the Dyelanders wouldn't desert. So sayeth
We tried our
hands at topical humor. The
contentious Gore/Bush campaign inspired an Adam/Andrew campaign.
But really I'm proud of it cause it marks the beginning of a shift away
from "John" aka George and to Andrew. While "John" makes a
few more appearances, the JABB we know (and hopefully love) today
begins with this issue, in my mind.
Introduction of the Dyeland Map!!!
our first newsletter after 9-11. Not
only was I heartened by the generosity many JABBers showed in
supporting our charity efforts, but going back to being goofy after
that was hard but necessary and so we did it. So this one really
makes me feel proud of us as a group.
comes that TBAA is in its final season.
Yet we survive... and even flourish! I like this one cause it
seems to hit a good balance between sweetly elegiac and absurdly
comedic. I'm proud of it cause it's so hopeful.
proud of this one. Not only is it the
first post-TBAA newsletter but it's also the last appearance of
"John." About time!
freaked myself out with this one. I got
chills writing the first half with the demonic Andrew and the eerie
dialogue between the adults and the lil girl clutching the
pocket watch. That's why I like this one. But I'm proud of
it cause I remember people speaking up and helping to design Andrew's
new pocket watch. Yay for teamwork!
10. JABB 159-
does this one tell how Andrew first met
the Dyelanders, but it's the first newsletters to feature photos of
Andrew and not just animated gifs. All thanks to Jess!
finally pulled myself together and really tackled
the "Andrew on Trial" idea. My only regret is that I'd love to
try the idea out now with the current Dyelanders. But it just
ain't right to have Andrew arrested each time membership changes!
CABB 2- While JABB
76 may have been the hardest newsletter to
begin, I think this one was the hardest one to write. But I think
those of us who wrote did a beautiful job and showed Mr. Rocket the
honor he deserves. Thank you to everyone who participated or who
encouraged those who did. And thank you, Charles Rocket.
witch trial issue. Okay, so maybe I'm
just proud of myself for reading hundreds of pages of trial documents
without going insane.
the obvious, being proud for reaching 200!,
the fact that 8 different people helped write this one is pretty
actually kinda complicated and very
time-consuming to pull off. But it's one I still enjoy
rereading. So thanks again to Jess and Liz for helping! Now
if only I could get Andrew to really watch "The Journalist" with me...
I'm proud of myself for writing anything at
all since I was crazy-stressed at the time. Second, I think this
is the first JABB newsletter that really integrates Author's Cut
with a newsletter. Thanks to Yvette, there were two Christmas
stories that year!
CABB 5- I'm
actually proud of all the CABBs so listing only 2
here seems wrong but I can't list everything. If I did it would
just be a detailed TOC. Anyhow, I'm proud of this one cause
Yvette and I were both funny here. Well, she was. I can
only hope I was! CABB 3 had been a lovely tribute and even CABB 4
was pretty sedated. But the fact that we were able to come back
and say "Ya know, it's okay to do a funny, light CABB" is just another
way of continuing Mr. Rocket's legacy.
happy that I pulled this one off since I was
really stressed at the time. But mostly I'm proud of it cause it
was very much a group effort. The story there features the input
of, I think, every last person who was playing Dyeland at the
time. Pretty cool!
JABB 224 a step further. Not only
did every last person playing Dyeland give input, every last person
playing Dyeland actually wrote the answers to their characters'
interview questions. A bit of an undertaking but I think the
end-product makes it all worthwhile! I just really love how all
the characters shone in this one.
JABB 251- 10
years. Enough said. Thanks everyone!
spending a while with JABB, you may start to learn a thing or
two. Whether these are things you were wanting to learn... well,
who knows! But in the end this new knowledge may even change
you. For the better, of course!
We've Learned and Who We Are
Have Learned at JABB:
“love the lovely [insert word]” should be embroidered on everything
from pillow cases to t-shirts.
Andrew as your boyfriend is okay if some creepy guy is hitting on you
while you’re out with the Loveliness.
many, many different nicknames. Including; Lovely Angel, Loveliness,
Swan Boat, Lovely One, and a bunch of others I
can’t think of at the moment. But they probably have the word “lovely”
in them, too. Which leads me to…
“lovely” is probably one of the most overused words at JABB. But it’s a
good word, so that’s okay.
blame anything on Jenni if I really want to and think ridiculously
siblings should hang a sign on their bedroom door that reads: "Thou
shalt not be very emotional if thou art the Andrew of one's family."
in his old
age, Andrew tends to forget about the top buttons on his shirts. And
that no one should ever remind him that they’re there!
if I don’t
discipline myself and keep up with my responses, I will end up
massively behind. Meaning, like, 100 pages behind!
is not what keeps me awake at night after an Andrew-a-thon!
wonderful in flannel shirts (and anything else) and I may feel the
strong urge to buy him shirts whilst out shopping.
awesome. And I wanna live there.
be mentally ill to turn his back on Andrew.
vampire in Dyeland doesn’t surprise me. Nor does the fact that Willy
Wonka lives there, too.
Andrew gets tongue-tied, he is even more adorable than usual!
write awesomely cool stories and still write JABB stuff, too!
can ask really stupid JABB questions.
Andrew’s hair never gets old.
episodes of TBAA is a really fun thing to do, though maybe not quite as
JABB has a
kinda like a ghost who haunts JABBers sometimes. But that’s okay!
Monica does not
know how to treat Andrew. And if she does know, that’s even worse cause
she’s not doing it right.
order is a very interesting topic and does apply to Andrew and Monica.
Andrew seems to
suffer from First Born Syndrome and it makes me feel even more sappy
and devoted towards him. Poor love…
the Swan Boat of JABB.
probably go broke if I got all the t-shirts and stuff I wanted from the
JABB has a
playlist and after listening to it so much, I can associate almost any
song I hear with Andrew and/or Dyeland now. I wonder if that’s bad…
JABB is a
really great group. The people in it care about each other and accept
each other’s obsessions and craziness, even if we might scare other
people. ;-) And I am very proud to get to take part in the 10th
stumbled upon JABB quite by
accident while surfing the net one boring
lunchtime at work. I’m so glad I did! Not only did I enjoy
giggling along with the newsletters, but I quickly found myself
immersed in a group of wonderful people with kindness and light in
their hearts. It couldn’t have come at a better time for me.
I’m sort of quiet
these days, (life hasn’t given me much
time), I do visit everyday and read the posts. It’s part of a
routine I’m not willing to part with. In the spirit of JABB’s
anniversary, and my personal fondness of the 'top 10 lists', I would
like to contribute some of the lessons I’ve picked up here. And
so, with no further delay, I give you…
Things I’ve Learned From
Green shirts on gorgeous men
make for a wonderful pastime.
Hours and hours of fun imaginations!
right tool belt on the
right hips can cause a swooning panic
among women that lasts for months… years, even!
It’s very easy to make
celebrity should ever,
ever cut his hair without first conducting
a thorough poll among his fans! It’s just not fair!
What do you mean there was
never really a murder trial? Sure
there was! It happened! Right?
Sitting on the stairs to cry
is a perfectly acceptable thing to do.
Like all Androolers, I now
know precisely what to do during a
Andrew gingerbreads are
amazing! See? There’s even one
with a little, wee, green shirt! *squeal*
Never mention those tassels
on the shoes. Just don’t!
Great friends are always
waiting to share their John Dye/Andrew
love with you, along with warm laughs, strong support and wonderful
to everyone for their
dedication to this wonderful place.
You know you’re a JABBer if:
1. You can freely
visualize how Vincent and Mick St. John are
hosting a chess tournament with Willy and Adam, while Yva, Rose, and
Lady JenniAnn sit around on the chamber floor making window decorations
for the Yvavator.
2. Dyeland and
life parallel in an almost creepy and uncanny
way. You start asking yourself if it was real or if it happened
3. You want to
London just to see if you can find Willy’s
factory, or Nigel’s flat, or to New York to search for the Tunnels, or
LA to see if you can hire Mick to help you find Dyeland, because you
desperately need to talk to Andrew about borrowing his tool belt.
4. You have
buckets in every room of your house, and use
them quite regularly.
5. There was
after TBAA, but it’s filled with male angels,
turkeys, tool belts, vampires and a plethora of other unrelated things,
but you still insist that it is OK, because it’s Dyeland.
6. For every
in life you ask: ‘What would Andrew /
Adam do / say if…?’
7. You adapt to
words as ‘luscious’, ‘love the lovely angel’
and other JABBesque vocabulary words. As an extension of that,
you insist that ‘probably’ is spelled wrong and will even argue the
point with your high school English teacher.
8. You love
and ‘My Immortal’ is your ring tone on your
cell phone because it makes you think of Andrew, Mick, Adam, Nigel,
9. You abhor
shipping to the umpteenth degree and are known
to write or make videos outlining that particular dislike.
10. You are
dozen postings behind and you realize that they
are all for the very same list and not for Joe and Suzie whom you
haven’t written to in six months because you try to prioritize.
Perhaps Joe and Suzie will now think about joining JABB as well so they
can at least stay in touch with you.
it seems only right to end this celebratory newsletter with a few words
to God. God's love for us was the message behind every episode of
TBAA. I think I speak for many of us when I say it was that
message which made me a fan and, by extension, a JABBer.
a Prayer for the Future...
thank You for the past 10 years You have given us as a group.
grateful for the laughter we've shared. May the memory of
it be with us all for years to come, bringing light to trying days.
grateful for the tears we've shed. May the memory of the
consolation and compassion we found here encourage us through other
the gift of friends we've made who continue to inspire,
encourage, and love us.
also those who have left us. May their memory remind
us to make the most of each moment and each conversation.
we're thankful for "Touched by an Angel" for bringing us
together and to all those people who made it possible. May its
central message, that You love us, always find us.
As we face
our future, we ask You to be with us and guide us. May
our jokes bring laughter to those desperately in need of a chuckle or
two. May our stories bring healing and understanding to ourselves
and each other. May our play provide needed escape from the real
world. Yet, may we always recognize and praise You for the beauty
that is our lives and our world.
Andrew, Adam, and all the rest are fictional, they gave us a
glimpse of the compassion, devotion, and love of Your angels. May
we always remember the reality behind the TV show and to never take for
granted Your love or theirs. Whatever time we have left as a
group, we dedicate it to You and Your angels.
The photographs used on this
page are from "Touched by
an Angel" and owned by CBS Productions, Caroline Productions, and Moon
Water Productions. They are not being used to seek profit.)